generation

professional critics

yes this is an update of life.

going to be a short on because i am about to watch this year's Oscars show and i do not want to sleep too late. just wanted to highlight a little about the movie i watched last night. the film was "Collateral Beauty" starring Will Smith as the lead actor.

this film re-assured my standpoint of trusting fans' critics websites like IMDB over professional critics like Rotten Tomatoes and what not. apparently this film was rated really poorly in the eyes of professionals but by movie goers.. 6.6 out of 10. so i decided to gamble a little and watch for myself. behold i made the good gamble. the film was awesome.. certainly undeserving of the poor reviews portrayed by some professional critics. IMDB ratings are slightly closer to me standard of movies personally i guess. will review on that film real soon but in the meantime, yeah worth watching. until next time then, cheers.

an odd dream

yes this is an update of my life.

the recess break is almost over. i guess i have had a good break from the mad busy life of year 3 semester 2. got sufficient time to catch up on knowledge gaps and enjoy my shows and rest time all at the same time. i think this feat was possible due to the fact that i have three tests that are well spread out over week 7 and week 8. the first one will be on Tuesday.. thankfully the content is manageable. the next one is on Saturday.. gosh i hate the day though lol. this one not really a midterm.. just quiz i guess around 10%.. comparatively less weightage than a typical midterm. the third and last one is on Monday of Week 8.. also the craziest one. haven't really start on serious revision on that module but i guess i have seriously start revising after Tuesday's paper. that paper, based on the past modules the professor taught, will for sure be really tough so i don't know.. studying for the sake of being screwed less i guess.

boring school life aside, i am here to talk about something that happened during my last night's sleep. yes, an odd dream. dreams are always sketchy yet the feelings we feel when experiencing them seem to stick at least for a day. furthermore, this time i have to say it out because i am confused about my own thoughts.. lol.

however, some background information is needed prior to me narrating the dream. so i am single since middle of last year.. and due to the amount of efforts and feelings placed into that relationship, moving on and getting over it has been really really really hurtful and difficult. yes, my grammar is right.. "has been".. because i'm pretty sure i am not 100% alright yet. i am still in a state where i don't know what my heart wants or feels.. confused state so to speak. rewind way way back to days in school when i was expected to wear uniform.. i had this crush of this girl (let's call her Z). things kicked off well with us texting and confiding to each other very often. however, things turned ugly between one of her possessive friends and me.. so our frequent conversations phased out. then that was it.. besides occasional well wishes during birthdays and new year, we hardly talk at all. now and then, i wonder how things would have been if not for that incident.

so on to the dream, i remember it starting off queuing up unwillingly for some exhibition with fatbro. then i saw Z with her family as well. i only met her family once and she did not have a brother. nonetheless, i still saw her family in the dream with a brother lol. dreams. so anyway, she seemed reluctant to queue as well. so when we saw each other we somehow began to talk like close friends and about how we hope to be not go for the exhibition. so after some thoughts and convincing we decided to hang out elsewhere.. yeah just the two of us. the rest of the dream felt as though i was in cloud 9 as she took me hand brought me around. remembered having a great time just hanging out and then i woke up somehow while eating.. lol. i felt happy and warm in short. so when i woke up, i was confused as to what my sub-concious is hinting to me.

well, one thing i was sure as hell.. i am not ready to move on when it comes to romance but well that dream happened. ohh wells, maybe just a silly dream. until next time then, cheers.

day and night

yes this is an update of my life.

well, one of my hope for the start of the year 2017 has come true. i have finally found another tutee to teach and keep my weekends and some weekday evenings occupied, earning extra cash for luxury and school fees payment all at the same time. the place is rather inaccessible but okay rather close to home. so now i have 2 students but three days of tuition. slotting this new on into my schedule is kind of tricky so i doubt two is max for now. i'm happy and satisfied with the current workload anyway. more than two with this semester of six modules might not be a very good idea.

so yeah today was the first of the many Saturdays teaching two different students. one in the morning, the other in the evening. been a while since i last teach two lessons in a day. slightly tiring but i'll get used to it real soon. i have to. seems like Saturday will be my new day to keep my mind off university workload. used to be Sunday but now given the time needed to travel and teach on Saturday.. hmm yeah you get the idea.

tuition settled. now for internship. still awaiting replies though. sigh.. it is almost March. process faster dear folks reading my applications.. thanks.. lol. until next time then, cheers.

goalkeeper

whether you are into football, or as the Americans called soccer, you ought to be familiar with the term "goalkeeper" and his/her role in the game. if you don't, either you are too young to be walking or too dumb to be reading this.. lol. anyway, assuming you know the roles of a goalkeeper in football games, i am going to relate the responsibilities and actions of a goalkeeper to our every life.

let's talk goalkeeper first. every fan would expect their team's goalkeeper to save shots and keep balls out of the net. every fan would expect their team's goalkeeper to make decisive actions like punching the ball to clearance or kicking it away or challenging an on-coming striker.. all to keep the ball out. fantastic saves are usually admired and appreciated for a couple of minutes, or in more crucial scenarios for days. however, when a goalkeeper fumbles and makes a silly mistake, the world will remember him for the rest of time. mockery and insults would be hurled now and then despite time of incident in history.

just like the goalkeeper, we are living everyday with such constant scrutiny. whenever are do a good deed and achieve great stuff, you will be remembered for a while most of the time. people would congratulate you or praise you now and then. however, when you screw up, people switch sides instantaneously and judged you based on that one mishap. taking a slightly extreme case for example, imagine a well-mannered man who has done tons of good deeds and help countless souls but one desperate moment resulted him to commit a crime. in everyone's eyes, he is a bad man. no amount of past deeds can pay for his one time mistake.

fair or unfair? that i will not answer but i will leave you with these thoughts. remember that everyone is always fighting battles of their own. while bad things they done might be glaring at you, at times think about the person as a whole. don't be too quick to judge.. take time to understand the situation or better, the person.

squeezed

yes this is an update of my life.

i am not sure is it just me forgetting a few things or is it really that i am almost done with my revision for my midterms. for the haters out there, no i am not bragging that i do shit fast but i am currently unsure if what i have done is enough. revised lectures, tutorials and PYPs. just got my cheatsheet done as well. so what now? i guess i am ready.. just need to relax for the rest of my recess week i guess.

come to think of it, i took four days to do all these on top of other commitments that i have to attend to. if i were to squeeze even more, giving myself less break time, maybe i can clear all in 2.5 days. ohh wells.. i feel weird but at the same time accomplished. help.

recess week stuff aside, i am still in a mental confusion state of not knowing what my mind or even heart wants. i find myself not being decisive lately and hopefully all these nonsense can be gone soon. until next time then, cheers.

headbutt

yes this is an update of my life.

two days ago i thought i have a lot of time left. now here i am sad that the week is half over. ohh recess week, why do you move so fast? i need so much more rest and play time. okay, probably more revision time as well but man it is Wednesday.

hit what it seems to me a dead end again earlier today. my confidence was crushed along with my hope. let me sit here and stone for a while. i will be ramming through the dead end head on and move on real soon. until next time then, cheers.

forever and always

first of the five

yes this is an update of my life.

day one of the recess week and i guess i have done enough to take the rest of the day off. usual practice of watching the many shows and Youtube subscription videos after dinner. productivity? hmm guess not since i am taking this entire week slowly. this isn't reading week.. instead of a pure study week, i am taking this more as a holiday. two midterms and one quiz so should be alright. even if it isn't i doubt i have the motivation to make this break as a real study week.

moving aside from school work, received a little glimpse of hope regarding my many internship applications. not going to count the chicks before they are hatched but i am glad opportunities arise after spam hunting in so many areas and for so many days. nothing is confirmed but i am keeping my fingers crossed. until next time then, cheers.

preliator

generation two

yes this is an update of my life.

going to talk about something that was a really hot topic half a year ago. then the hype sort of died down here in Singapore but now i'm sure it will be hot again.. just not sure if the hype is here to stay for long. this topic is none other than Pokémon Go. yes, as of this morning, the new generation of monsters have be introduced to the game.

personally, i have been playing daily ever since the game appeared but just that not so active. however, i foresee myself being more active and wandering more in the next few days or weeks. my life is going to be lifeless lol. but relax.. i'm not those addicts that need get all as soon as possible. hell, generations one monsters aren't all in my collection yet. gameplay changed a little but other than that same old same old.

that game aside, i see myself now sitting next to my pile of red packets from the lunar new year. probably have to open and deposit the money soon. i say have to because i am so not used to have them on my desk.. haha weird me. until next time then, cheers.

five weeks

yes this is an update of my life.

it felt as though it has been five weeks but it has only been five days i've been staying on campus this week. came in early Sunday morning for some experiment thingy lesson. good experience i would say but somehow waking up super early on weekends aren't great for me and my head. had a bad headache midway through the session and went to sleep right after it until it was time for dinner. fatbro and i were in school the entire Sunday.. what sad lives we have but fortunately, we have awesome parents as well. they flew down voluntarily to have dinner with us in Clementi.

well, yeah should have mentioned this in the previous time when i updated my life here but i have a clearer mind to put all those to words today. am thankful for them and the efforts they put it for the two of us.

okay, kind of drifted away too long. so yeah, five days felt like five weeks. not much idea why besides the fact that staying on campus during weekends feels as though time would slow down to poke fun in me. another reason would probably i am still swimming in the depth of complex statistics classes and tutorials. plus, the intense group discussion with my business analytics group members last night. could have slept so much earlier last night but ohh wells.. at least those debates can spur my thinking brain more.

yeah, exhausted and i left one more day to the weekends.. to the recess week. need a decent break before taking on two midterm papers and a quiz. gosh quiz on a Saturday morning.. damn you, professor. until next time then, cheers.

unease

yes this is an update of my life.

i am all too familiar with is feeling of insecurity and unease. did and reality to see that i am in the middle of the semester and yet the amount of content i understand from my core modules is rather little as compared to other semesters at this point in time. recess week period, to be precise. this week will be the last week before classes break into recess week. guess i have to take this recess week seriously despite having just two midterm papers.

still in the midst of hunting internships as well. not sure if i am searching enough or in the right places.. nonetheless, not giving up until i have found a decent one. until next time then, cheers.

cartoon heroes

99

yes this is an update of my life.

just like that the 15 days of lunar new year are now over. the year of the rooster.. my zodiac year and maybe that is the reason behind my gambling luck this year. last year suffered quite a bit of a loss but i managed to win back whatever i lost and got back way more. yeah, the title of this post hints the winning.

lunar new year can be a fun period of time.. and tiring as well. somehow or rather, this year felt more tiring for me than any other year. i think it is due to the fact of the timing of this year's lunar new year clashes with a lot of deadlines and other crucial administration dates. somewhat glad that those 15 days a re over now. weekends can be more free without the non-stop visiting and what not. well, i love those visitings but man i am totally worn out.. just nice on day 15 yesterday. i can now focus on the woes of a college student.. internship and studies. until next time then, cheers.

4000 feet below

yes this is an update of my life.

so after listening a few nostalgic pop songs.. i am back scrolling through my music library and listening to even more of those.. more than i intended couple of days back. shan't post for now but rather i feel the obligation to update my life right now.

first things first, this is always the first thing i talk about during school terms. yeah, academics.. yawn. boring but still.. the need to talk to ease my stress and what not. semester 2 is always a very hectic semester for a couple of reasons. one, when school just started, apart from the hassle of bidding modules and balloting tutorial slots, i have to prepare for the lunar new year. then when the lunar new year comes, i realised that i am way closer to recess week than i am before.. which means midterms are nearing and i am almost halfway through the semester. scarily fast. two, the applications of various stuff normally kicks in during this semester every year as well. application for financial aid. application for hostel. application for internship. yeah all occurring almost at the same time. three, i have to start to find more time to train myself in preparation for IPPT and reservist.. lol. no extra explanation required here.

so yeah.. the things i have to do apart from the constant catching up on classes are significantly more than semester 1. nonetheless, i am used to it already. just need to run through the to-do list and done list now and then to make sure i don't accidentally miss something.

those aside, been actively attending workshops and talks and what not to level myself up in the non-academic way. IQ is important but EQ is slightly more important in my opinion. i try and i strive.. hopefully making full use of the opportunities i am privileged to have. such things can be mundane at times but they can be another alternative to swimming 4000 feet below in the ice cold water known as level 4000 core modules. the constant feeling of drowning is unhealthy hence the need to explore other parts of me and my life.. lol. until next time then, cheers.

about a girl

great escape

2 > 1

on top of the world

famous last words