Tuesday, October 31, 2017
Monday, October 30, 2017
shadow monster
yes this is an update of my life.
time check, week 11 of semester 1 of year 4. things are not getting easier for sure. this coming few days and next week will be one hell of a hectic ride. nonetheless, i choose to remain positive and stand up from the recent blow to the face as i take on the final three weeks of the semester.
piles of submissions are mounting during these two weeks. FYP is going slightly smooth i guess.. the results churned out is a little questionable and weird but real data is as such i guess. there are bound to be limitations in a real dataset. am expected to churn out some presentation slides to present to my co-supervisor soon as well. mad rush for time but necessary i guess. would be good to obtain more insights on how this project can be carried on from where i am right now. i am also aware that i am doing slightly faster than expected hence i would say FYP is doing alright.. at least among the other modules i am reading.
on to something more light hearted.. here is a snapshot from the second season of "Stranger Things". still wondering if there will be future seasons and episodes of this show. the shadow monster sure instilled quite a fear throughout this season but slightly disappointed that it has not much screen time haha. until next time then, cheers.
time check, week 11 of semester 1 of year 4. things are not getting easier for sure. this coming few days and next week will be one hell of a hectic ride. nonetheless, i choose to remain positive and stand up from the recent blow to the face as i take on the final three weeks of the semester.
piles of submissions are mounting during these two weeks. FYP is going slightly smooth i guess.. the results churned out is a little questionable and weird but real data is as such i guess. there are bound to be limitations in a real dataset. am expected to churn out some presentation slides to present to my co-supervisor soon as well. mad rush for time but necessary i guess. would be good to obtain more insights on how this project can be carried on from where i am right now. i am also aware that i am doing slightly faster than expected hence i would say FYP is doing alright.. at least among the other modules i am reading.
on to something more light hearted.. here is a snapshot from the second season of "Stranger Things". still wondering if there will be future seasons and episodes of this show. the shadow monster sure instilled quite a fear throughout this season but slightly disappointed that it has not much screen time haha. until next time then, cheers.
Sunday, October 29, 2017
brooding
yes this is an update of my life.
unfortunately, yes, i am still harping on the fact that i am on the left tail as mentioned in the previous post. going to comment a little more before moving on to something better.
about four years ago.. with a shitty A levels results i managed to got into NUS.. not by the conventional method but rather after the discretionary admission interview. till date, i still remember the anxiety as i waited for the outcome of the interview back then. upon knowing that i was accepted into NUS, i was really elated and promised myself to never be on the extreme left side of the curve. being there throughout JC and even among the applicants entering Science course in NUS have made me vow never to be there again. i wanted to work hard to prevent such things from happening.
well, it did went well as i strive to stay on the correct side for 3+ years. this recent one reminds me of where i was back in those days where grades told me i am a stupid and dumb student. therefore, it takes a little toll on me. grit, Alvin, grit. yes, i know, i have to get up soon.
moving on to better things. managed to finish binge watching season 2 of "Stranger Things". this season is definitely better than the first. the ending was better. the action was better. the plot was better. nonetheless, there are still questions unanswered and new stuff introduced.. which can be developed in future seasons. i wonder will there be any more seasons after this. either way.. even if this is the last season, i think it would not be that bad as well. you should watch. until next time then, cheers.
unfortunately, yes, i am still harping on the fact that i am on the left tail as mentioned in the previous post. going to comment a little more before moving on to something better.
about four years ago.. with a shitty A levels results i managed to got into NUS.. not by the conventional method but rather after the discretionary admission interview. till date, i still remember the anxiety as i waited for the outcome of the interview back then. upon knowing that i was accepted into NUS, i was really elated and promised myself to never be on the extreme left side of the curve. being there throughout JC and even among the applicants entering Science course in NUS have made me vow never to be there again. i wanted to work hard to prevent such things from happening.
well, it did went well as i strive to stay on the correct side for 3+ years. this recent one reminds me of where i was back in those days where grades told me i am a stupid and dumb student. therefore, it takes a little toll on me. grit, Alvin, grit. yes, i know, i have to get up soon.
moving on to better things. managed to finish binge watching season 2 of "Stranger Things". this season is definitely better than the first. the ending was better. the action was better. the plot was better. nonetheless, there are still questions unanswered and new stuff introduced.. which can be developed in future seasons. i wonder will there be any more seasons after this. either way.. even if this is the last season, i think it would not be that bad as well. you should watch. until next time then, cheers.
Saturday, October 28, 2017
left tail
yes this is an update of my life.
yet another week past. still surviving mentally but barely. this past week has been a rather rollercoaster ride as well. from things to be really happy about to things to be really sad/angry about. two extremes occurring within a really short time.
college is generally a place where stress is mounting continuously but the company one has can really make a real difference. this is where i could be happy about the past week. the Science subcommittee i'm in has finally met.. twice in the last week to iron out many things. had welcome tea earlier in the week where we really met one another like how new people meet in an orientation camp.. over food, little games and random chit chats. our first more serious meeting went great as well.. am part of the video and photography team. cannot wait to start working with the group of awesome people and learning new things throughout this academic year.
so thankful for such great company. people ask how come among the crazy busy life of college, i still want to fork out time for such CCA. well, personally such avenue is a great way to enforce relaxation from the mundane books and papers. who knows, this would be beneficial when i look back few years from now.
alright, going to touch on the sad part a little as well.. for most personal battles are fought in one's head. i think one of the saddest thing one can experience while studying or working is that after putting in all that you can and what not, you are being told that you are just not good enough.. that's it. well, i had this familiar experience when i got back one of the midterm result this past week. it was the worst in recent semesters.. probably worse than the previous worst result way back in year 1 semester 1. however, that time there was S/U option for core modules.. but this time.. no.
how bad? let's just say i am sitting "comfortably" on the left most side of the bell curve quartile. it os so going to be difficult climb from here on out.. and i wonder if it is even possible. like i said, most battles are fought in one's head. i am still finding the strength and motivation to stand up after this fatal fall.
on the other note, i also think i need a friend replacement for a person.. haha. too many times and effort wasted trying to build one side of the bridge.. hmm. until next time then, cheers.
yet another week past. still surviving mentally but barely. this past week has been a rather rollercoaster ride as well. from things to be really happy about to things to be really sad/angry about. two extremes occurring within a really short time.
college is generally a place where stress is mounting continuously but the company one has can really make a real difference. this is where i could be happy about the past week. the Science subcommittee i'm in has finally met.. twice in the last week to iron out many things. had welcome tea earlier in the week where we really met one another like how new people meet in an orientation camp.. over food, little games and random chit chats. our first more serious meeting went great as well.. am part of the video and photography team. cannot wait to start working with the group of awesome people and learning new things throughout this academic year.
so thankful for such great company. people ask how come among the crazy busy life of college, i still want to fork out time for such CCA. well, personally such avenue is a great way to enforce relaxation from the mundane books and papers. who knows, this would be beneficial when i look back few years from now.
alright, going to touch on the sad part a little as well.. for most personal battles are fought in one's head. i think one of the saddest thing one can experience while studying or working is that after putting in all that you can and what not, you are being told that you are just not good enough.. that's it. well, i had this familiar experience when i got back one of the midterm result this past week. it was the worst in recent semesters.. probably worse than the previous worst result way back in year 1 semester 1. however, that time there was S/U option for core modules.. but this time.. no.
how bad? let's just say i am sitting "comfortably" on the left most side of the bell curve quartile. it os so going to be difficult climb from here on out.. and i wonder if it is even possible. like i said, most battles are fought in one's head. i am still finding the strength and motivation to stand up after this fatal fall.
on the other note, i also think i need a friend replacement for a person.. haha. too many times and effort wasted trying to build one side of the bridge.. hmm. until next time then, cheers.
Wednesday, October 25, 2017
teased by the heavens
yes this is an update of my life.
this is the first Wednesday since the beginning of the semester where i can really relax and not do anything much related to school. for the past 9 weeks, my Wednesdays have be filled with school work related stuff and tuition. those tuition classes were on Wednesday were in place as the PSLE exams were near back then. now, PSLE is over and i am somewhat on pace with my school work.. hence, the possibility of relaxing today.
feels as though i am on holiday but i know this is just for today. tomorrow will be back to the grind. last evening's first meeting with subcommittee members was great. food was great, time spent together was great. yeah, there were awkward silences at times but hey for the first time we are meeting, i got to say it was more lively than i expected. real work begins tomorrow evening as we enter our first official meeting to iron out roles and what not.
last week was cool in terms of the weather on campus but this week? the heavens are teasing us.. gloomy and cloudy more often than sunny but.. no rain. not as cooling as last week and each day i hope that rain comes to keep the grounds cooler. time to head back tocatch up on the shows i am following. until next time then, cheers.
this is the first Wednesday since the beginning of the semester where i can really relax and not do anything much related to school. for the past 9 weeks, my Wednesdays have be filled with school work related stuff and tuition. those tuition classes were on Wednesday were in place as the PSLE exams were near back then. now, PSLE is over and i am somewhat on pace with my school work.. hence, the possibility of relaxing today.
feels as though i am on holiday but i know this is just for today. tomorrow will be back to the grind. last evening's first meeting with subcommittee members was great. food was great, time spent together was great. yeah, there were awkward silences at times but hey for the first time we are meeting, i got to say it was more lively than i expected. real work begins tomorrow evening as we enter our first official meeting to iron out roles and what not.
last week was cool in terms of the weather on campus but this week? the heavens are teasing us.. gloomy and cloudy more often than sunny but.. no rain. not as cooling as last week and each day i hope that rain comes to keep the grounds cooler. time to head back tocatch up on the shows i am following. until next time then, cheers.
Monday, October 23, 2017
the breeze we need
yes this is an update of my life.
anyone else as hyped as me for the season 2 of "Stranger Things"? well.. counting the days to Friday.. then i can hide in a corner all weekend to watch the entire season.
today was surprisingly a slightly more productive day than i expected it to be. two factors i guess. one, the weather. two, i refused to nap in the afternoon like i usually do. the entire week last week was so hot and humid.. thankfully this morning's weather was chilling and cold enough to make my room temperature to be at a comfortable level. woke up to slight rain and then breeze took over the entire morning. it is the breeze we need, not the breeze we deserve.. lol.
if you did not get that reference then it is alright. moving on, still working on the useless assignment i was talking about couple of posts back. this lecturer last warning.. just released another piece of work that has to been handed in on the same day as his useless assignment. this week and next week will be slightly of a hell week for me i guess.. well at least in terms of submission. nonetheless, outside of academics, there are events to look forward to as well. may i have the strength and wisdom to pull through. until next time then, cheers.
anyone else as hyped as me for the season 2 of "Stranger Things"? well.. counting the days to Friday.. then i can hide in a corner all weekend to watch the entire season.
today was surprisingly a slightly more productive day than i expected it to be. two factors i guess. one, the weather. two, i refused to nap in the afternoon like i usually do. the entire week last week was so hot and humid.. thankfully this morning's weather was chilling and cold enough to make my room temperature to be at a comfortable level. woke up to slight rain and then breeze took over the entire morning. it is the breeze we need, not the breeze we deserve.. lol.
if you did not get that reference then it is alright. moving on, still working on the useless assignment i was talking about couple of posts back. this lecturer last warning.. just released another piece of work that has to been handed in on the same day as his useless assignment. this week and next week will be slightly of a hell week for me i guess.. well at least in terms of submission. nonetheless, outside of academics, there are events to look forward to as well. may i have the strength and wisdom to pull through. until next time then, cheers.
Sunday, October 22, 2017
near the end
yes this is an update of my life.
yet another weekend gone. got to say i guess i had a rather decent weekend catching up on my sleep time and what not. managed to pace my lifestyle better this weekend. not much work accomplished but nevermind i will have to work slightly harder this coming 5 days.
that being said, it is the start of week 10 tomorrow. i am so focus on breathing and keep myself afloat the entire semester so much so that most weekdays feel like a serious survival course. i am surviving rather than living this entire semester so far and i don't really like it. then again, i guess this is what is of a final year student. the difficulty of modules, the workload, the stress, the agony, the frantic.. all have gone up many many notches from the previous years/semesters.
week 10.. the week count is in double digits.. meaning in about a month's time, it will be reading week. just before that would be when all the deadlines of projects and assignments. above all.. the tedious FYP. haha.. FYP. something i ought to re-visit and continue to work on this few days.
well, at least there is something to look forward to this week.. meeting new friends in the Science subcommittee. until next time then, cheers.
yet another weekend gone. got to say i guess i had a rather decent weekend catching up on my sleep time and what not. managed to pace my lifestyle better this weekend. not much work accomplished but nevermind i will have to work slightly harder this coming 5 days.
that being said, it is the start of week 10 tomorrow. i am so focus on breathing and keep myself afloat the entire semester so much so that most weekdays feel like a serious survival course. i am surviving rather than living this entire semester so far and i don't really like it. then again, i guess this is what is of a final year student. the difficulty of modules, the workload, the stress, the agony, the frantic.. all have gone up many many notches from the previous years/semesters.
week 10.. the week count is in double digits.. meaning in about a month's time, it will be reading week. just before that would be when all the deadlines of projects and assignments. above all.. the tedious FYP. haha.. FYP. something i ought to re-visit and continue to work on this few days.
well, at least there is something to look forward to this week.. meeting new friends in the Science subcommittee. until next time then, cheers.
Saturday, October 21, 2017
Thursday, October 19, 2017
useless assignment
yes this is an update of my life.
so glad that i am able to catch up some work today. looking at the things i have to really spend a lot of time to do.. there is one more task left that requires a lot of my attention, time and brain juice. worse still, it is useless. so yes, there is this assignment for a particular module that is completely useless. let me explain myself a little.
so this assignment is an application from what we have learned. sounds good? well not exactly, because it is a very big jump from the theory. this application skill needed in this assignment is not very useful and transferable to many jobs out there as well. while the theory part might be tested, this practical part is definitely not going to be covered in the final exam. so the one and only good thing from this useless assignment is the pathetic 15% of overall grade.
that silly work aside, finally the good news arrived. am part of the Science sub-committee as well. looking forward to what's ahead and the new people i am going to meet. yes, time will get a little crammed and packed but it will always be a fruitful experience in the end. may i be able to juggle this new addition to my busy semester well. until next time then, cheers.
so glad that i am able to catch up some work today. looking at the things i have to really spend a lot of time to do.. there is one more task left that requires a lot of my attention, time and brain juice. worse still, it is useless. so yes, there is this assignment for a particular module that is completely useless. let me explain myself a little.
so this assignment is an application from what we have learned. sounds good? well not exactly, because it is a very big jump from the theory. this application skill needed in this assignment is not very useful and transferable to many jobs out there as well. while the theory part might be tested, this practical part is definitely not going to be covered in the final exam. so the one and only good thing from this useless assignment is the pathetic 15% of overall grade.
that silly work aside, finally the good news arrived. am part of the Science sub-committee as well. looking forward to what's ahead and the new people i am going to meet. yes, time will get a little crammed and packed but it will always be a fruitful experience in the end. may i be able to juggle this new addition to my busy semester well. until next time then, cheers.
Wednesday, October 18, 2017
Tuesday, October 17, 2017
Monday, October 16, 2017
more steam
yes this is an update of my life.
reality check.. it is Week 9 of the semester. things are not looking good i would say.. at least in terms of studies wise. the content of two of my core level 4000 modules is disgusting. well, i love statistics, yes, but the amount of content they feed us in a given period of time is insane. furthermore, not all the teaching staffs can teach well enough to convey those new ideas and knowledge to the students. this is evident from the students' performances in various assessments. pretty evident, in fact.
nonetheless, i am hungry to improve and sort out my doubts. however, i am missing the steam these few days. maybe it is partly due to the fact that i had my last midterm paper only last week and needed to rest a little. my heart says rest but my mind knows better than that.. i cannot rest too long for it is already the second half of the semester.. a period where there are many assignments and projects due. and all these are above the fact that i need to catchup on the lectures.
ohh good gracious, may i find that steam to power through the remaining of the semester. i do not only want to survive but to do and score well this semester. i can do this. until next time then, cheers.
reality check.. it is Week 9 of the semester. things are not looking good i would say.. at least in terms of studies wise. the content of two of my core level 4000 modules is disgusting. well, i love statistics, yes, but the amount of content they feed us in a given period of time is insane. furthermore, not all the teaching staffs can teach well enough to convey those new ideas and knowledge to the students. this is evident from the students' performances in various assessments. pretty evident, in fact.
nonetheless, i am hungry to improve and sort out my doubts. however, i am missing the steam these few days. maybe it is partly due to the fact that i had my last midterm paper only last week and needed to rest a little. my heart says rest but my mind knows better than that.. i cannot rest too long for it is already the second half of the semester.. a period where there are many assignments and projects due. and all these are above the fact that i need to catchup on the lectures.
ohh good gracious, may i find that steam to power through the remaining of the semester. i do not only want to survive but to do and score well this semester. i can do this. until next time then, cheers.
Saturday, October 14, 2017
Thursday, October 12, 2017
scrambling with code
yes this is an update of my life.
thankful that i can heave a sigh of relief today after meeting with my FYP mentor. the scrambling of running and testing so many models worked out well. at least now i know which one can be used and i can carry on from here. just when i thought i have to head back to write and analyse this weekend, i was notified that the next meeting with him would be two weeks form now.. so in a way still got a little more time to put it on hold first.
i realised i have been scrambling with coding and not saving the graphs and what not that eventually are needed in my report. hmm.. maybe i should use the extra time to do so soon. then again, there are few assignments, on top of the usual tutorials, to clear next week. see how this goes then.. timely to have a FYP break next week as well i guess.
also in the process of joining back Science Club subcommittee.. hope all goes well and then i will be busier. like i said before, busy is good. looking forward to what lies ahead. until next time then, cheers.
thankful that i can heave a sigh of relief today after meeting with my FYP mentor. the scrambling of running and testing so many models worked out well. at least now i know which one can be used and i can carry on from here. just when i thought i have to head back to write and analyse this weekend, i was notified that the next meeting with him would be two weeks form now.. so in a way still got a little more time to put it on hold first.
i realised i have been scrambling with coding and not saving the graphs and what not that eventually are needed in my report. hmm.. maybe i should use the extra time to do so soon. then again, there are few assignments, on top of the usual tutorials, to clear next week. see how this goes then.. timely to have a FYP break next week as well i guess.
also in the process of joining back Science Club subcommittee.. hope all goes well and then i will be busier. like i said before, busy is good. looking forward to what lies ahead. until next time then, cheers.
Wednesday, October 11, 2017
destructive papers
yes this is an update of my life.
so yesterday was the end of the series of midterm papers. and by "series", i meant two papers. yeah while the number of papers is few, the difficulty is immense. guess over the last 3 years or so i would have mentioned couple of times that i really dislike the idea of having midterms more than i like. let me start with why i like them. well, they set the pace and expectation of the final exam of the module. at least one can anticipate better the level of difficulty, the amount of preparation need and what not.
as for the bad side, simply put, the midterms can be very disruptive to my semester studies. when there are midterms to prepare for, i realise my brain cannot really focus on the lessons that are ongoing during the weeks of midterms. i find myself heavily invested into the midterms, halting the learning of other modules. tutorials will pause, learning will pause. then once midterms are over, i have to almost immediately get back into catching up with the lectures and classes. well, more often than not my brain insists on resting a little first.
so, today is the day my brain takes a real break before moving on fast again. my lectures and tutorials will be caught up only after today. as for the dead ends i rammed into during my FYP analysis previously, i shall wait to see if my mentor can rectify the situation or what not in tomorrow's meeting. timely to have all the regular shows i watch annually to start their new seasons this week as well. until next time then, cheers.
so yesterday was the end of the series of midterm papers. and by "series", i meant two papers. yeah while the number of papers is few, the difficulty is immense. guess over the last 3 years or so i would have mentioned couple of times that i really dislike the idea of having midterms more than i like. let me start with why i like them. well, they set the pace and expectation of the final exam of the module. at least one can anticipate better the level of difficulty, the amount of preparation need and what not.
as for the bad side, simply put, the midterms can be very disruptive to my semester studies. when there are midterms to prepare for, i realise my brain cannot really focus on the lessons that are ongoing during the weeks of midterms. i find myself heavily invested into the midterms, halting the learning of other modules. tutorials will pause, learning will pause. then once midterms are over, i have to almost immediately get back into catching up with the lectures and classes. well, more often than not my brain insists on resting a little first.
so, today is the day my brain takes a real break before moving on fast again. my lectures and tutorials will be caught up only after today. as for the dead ends i rammed into during my FYP analysis previously, i shall wait to see if my mentor can rectify the situation or what not in tomorrow's meeting. timely to have all the regular shows i watch annually to start their new seasons this week as well. until next time then, cheers.
Monday, October 9, 2017
Sunday, October 8, 2017
Friday, October 6, 2017
more weekend time
yes this is an update of my life.
so this weekend i have fewer tuition classes.. since PSLE is over. two less students, two less lessons. more time to sleep. more time to watch my shows/movies. more time to chill. more time to do schoolwork. wait.. what.
i realised i am a little of a workaholic. maybe is my OCD side of me that is causing this as well. i feel uneasy whenever i don't do anything for a long time. hence, at times school work is something i turn to if i find myself doing other things for too long. maybe is guilt of not handling the important stuff as well.. considering the more important things present in my life now is school-related. ohh wells.. off to kick start and more free weekend. until next time then, cheers.
so this weekend i have fewer tuition classes.. since PSLE is over. two less students, two less lessons. more time to sleep. more time to watch my shows/movies. more time to chill. more time to do schoolwork. wait.. what.
i realised i am a little of a workaholic. maybe is my OCD side of me that is causing this as well. i feel uneasy whenever i don't do anything for a long time. hence, at times school work is something i turn to if i find myself doing other things for too long. maybe is guilt of not handling the important stuff as well.. considering the more important things present in my life now is school-related. ohh wells.. off to kick start and more free weekend. until next time then, cheers.
Wednesday, October 4, 2017
yarn
yes this is an update of my life.
currently tangled in a very messy ball of yarn. thing is i have experienced and come across this yarn couple of times. yet i still find myself struggling to find my way out. so much thoughts, so much choices, so much possibilities, so much uncertainties. just when i thought i see some light, darkness took over yet again.
i know i am not suppose to focus on this issue right now but rather the upcoming midterms. nonetheless, now or after midterms, this will still bite me in the back. i just letting it bite now and not do anything about it. hopefully i can find the optimism to handle this the best possible way. until next time then, cheers.
currently tangled in a very messy ball of yarn. thing is i have experienced and come across this yarn couple of times. yet i still find myself struggling to find my way out. so much thoughts, so much choices, so much possibilities, so much uncertainties. just when i thought i see some light, darkness took over yet again.
i know i am not suppose to focus on this issue right now but rather the upcoming midterms. nonetheless, now or after midterms, this will still bite me in the back. i just letting it bite now and not do anything about it. hopefully i can find the optimism to handle this the best possible way. until next time then, cheers.
Tuesday, October 3, 2017
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