jump start

yes this is an update of my life.

two days of the weekend is coming to end before the start of elearning week. i always have this personal policy of mine that sort of make sure i will relax and chill after major tests or exams. Friday was the last midterm for the week and hence naturally i've chilling since then. however, i know i have to kick start the engine starting tomorrow.. no, jump start.

i have not much power in that engine already. i think every semester is similar. around this time of the semester, the pain and stress would have numb me. the energy and life will be slowly leaking out of my soul but i have no longer the energy to fix that efficiently. yeah.. throughout the remaining few weeks, i will just be looking towards the end.. not because i am ready to take on the remaining of the semester but because i want to just drop dead at the finishing line and rest.

ohh well, that's life in university i guess. can't complain much but just have to suck it up or at least try fixing and adapting accordingly. looking at the amount of work ahead this week, i can just wallow in despair and self-pity.. but no i'm better than that and i shall proof myself so. next challenge.. a midterm test on Monday.. on a module i don't really have good knowledge on.