securing classes

yes this is an update of my life.

the beginning of every semester starts of with the tedious process of securing classes. from fighting for modules to take using whatever bid points one has to relying on luck to ballot for tutorial classes. that's of course speaking from a NUS student. i know other schools have other system. nonetheless, regardless of the system used, i'm sure each and every one is tedious and troublesome.. lol.

during the bidding of lecture slots, i've bad couple of poor decisions. this resulted to me paying more bid points for some of the modules. one of the modules i have now also required me appealing to the faculty to give me a slot. just as i thought all was over, the first round of tutorial balloting almost gave me the ideal timetable. sad to say, i failed to secure a tutorial slot for a particular module. gosh.. ohh wells not complaining or what not for i am somewhat numb to it already i guess.

moving on and away from academics, my birthday happens to fall on every start of the academic year. there have been countless surprises and celebrations over the past few days. i would once again thank all those people who were there to celebrate with me and come out with cool surprises. thanks for the wishes, gifts and the the love.

fairytale

swallowing you whole

people say NS changes a person. i say no. no, as in not that NS don’t change someone.. but rather i think what really change a person are the experiences and what not. just that guys have an additional luxury of 2 years to handle such crucial experiences. or at least that is what i feel. personally, i think the years in NS change me as a person. no, not really NS itself changing me but those events that happened during the course of 22 months. comparatively, i find myself better at handling stress and insecurities now as to those times before NS. you see, NS is the period of time where, aside from doing the mundane drills a soldier has to do, i could sort myself out, trying new perspectives and learning. 

stress and insecurities. everyone has them. everyone sure will have them some point or another. these are aspects of life that are inevitable in a fast pacing society like Singapore. however, the thing that really separates individuals when they are all faced with similar pressure is the ability to handle it. it’s an obvious statement but not many people really put it to context. okay.. let me rephrase that. many people know those stress and insecurities are affecting them and what not. they try to take it head on but after seeing not much improvements, they spiral into negative emotions.

well, before moving on, let’s hear the hard truth. stress and insecurities will eat you alive from the inside. upon that, you will feel a great void as you begin to question anything and everything. i say so for i have experienced so.

like i said, those are natural. they will visit you now and then. thing is how one respond to it really makes hell of a difference in your daily life. i used to one who will desperately try all methods to reduce it and after some time of not seeing any improvement, i will wallow in a deafening silence of self-pity. in the end, nothing good came out. no improvement. nothing. then after couple of wake up calls, i tried other ways to handle such emotions. methods differ from individuals as well. for me, i would always i am calm before even getting started to trying to solve the issue. if i sense myself too stressed or what to think straight, i would excuse myself away or not think about the problem for the time being. once calmed, i will not jump to the first solution i can think of. i weigh the pros and cons of all methods before deciding on one.

to be honest, putting those in words seem so silly. but if you can figure what i mean then good for you. if not, don’t fret just take your time to manage them. you know you have learned when those negative emotions don’t hit you often. good luck.