secrets for you

for me, when it comes to friends and secrets, there are many categories. if you are my certain kind of friend, you deserve to know certain secrets only. okay, to begin with secrets are for my good and best friends only. i don’t entertain normal friends and acquaintances with my dear stories. yeah, call me old-fashioned or conservative or what-not but that’s how i roll.

secrets can be in form of many kinds.. love life, something you did to someone that you feel guilty about, family problems, emotional struggles. the list goes on and on. well, i believe you are smart enough to know what i mean. anyway, i’m sure you would keep secrets of your own as well and of course, you would not share them with anyone and everyone who knows you by your looks and your name.

well, if you are a friend who have heard of practically everything in the list listed above, you are probably what i see as a best friend who is dear to me. nonetheless, if you are a friend who have heard at least one of those, you are also a treasured friend. understand that secrets are secrets for a reason. not all secrets should be shared with all whom i treasure. 

on top of that, for some noob friends out there that i might have, secrets mentioned to you do not give you the right to use it as a blackmail or what not. if you are guilty of doing so or something similar, shame on you. i’m not dumb. i hold the virtue of trust really seriously. of course in second chances as well. one time to many, i would know that i have trusted the wrong person.

2am

yes this is an update of my life.

nope this post wasn't started at 2am. the point of the title of this post will be known soon. sitting here and waiting for yet another big clash in the world of soccer. it is the FA Cup clash between Man Utd and Arsenal. how exciting is it going to be.. i hope i don't waste my time watching a goal-less match. of course, more goals have to come from Arsenal.

anyway, staying up late and feeling glad that there are friends who do so as well. chit chatting random stuff can be fun. i realise one thing about myself since years ago. anything said after 2am is utterly random and personal half the time. so if you want to know me really well.. come talk to me after midnight.. haha.

the amount of sleep i need will be great after watching the game. let's hope Arsenal wins and that i wake up by 1pm.. lol.

jump start

yes this is an update of my life.

two days of the weekend is coming to end before the start of elearning week. i always have this personal policy of mine that sort of make sure i will relax and chill after major tests or exams. Friday was the last midterm for the week and hence naturally i've chilling since then. however, i know i have to kick start the engine starting tomorrow.. no, jump start.

i have not much power in that engine already. i think every semester is similar. around this time of the semester, the pain and stress would have numb me. the energy and life will be slowly leaking out of my soul but i have no longer the energy to fix that efficiently. yeah.. throughout the remaining few weeks, i will just be looking towards the end.. not because i am ready to take on the remaining of the semester but because i want to just drop dead at the finishing line and rest.

ohh well, that's life in university i guess. can't complain much but just have to suck it up or at least try fixing and adapting accordingly. looking at the amount of work ahead this week, i can just wallow in despair and self-pity.. but no i'm better than that and i shall proof myself so. next challenge.. a midterm test on Monday.. on a module i don't really have good knowledge on.