Thursday, December 7, 2017

baby steps

yes this is an update of my life.

everyday feels like a weekend when you are on break. still finding the needed motivation to actually do something productive. well, updating here is somewhat productive i would say.. so for now i will take that while justifying i did something meaningful and productive day in day out. baby steps towards more productive days.



i have roughly 5 weeks of winter break to make significant progress in my FYP. sometimes things tend to align pretty well in terms of timing. this week most of my shows will be airing their final episode before taking roughly a month's break from air. this would allow me to watch and enjoy my first few days of winter break before these distractions are written off my schedule so as to allow me to be more focused on FYP.

so it is settled then, i shall start working hard on FYP stuff next week onwards. ought to do something first if i want to meet my supervisor once more in late December. well, he suggested January meeting but i hinted late December if possible. why, Alvin, why? well, mainly so that i could make use of the time at hand and not procrastinate and what not.

been pondering a little on employment as well. got some rough ideas but nothing is set in stone.. so shan't really comment much about it until i decide and finally take some sort of action. until next time then, cheers.

Tuesday, December 5, 2017

out from cave, into winter

yes this is an update of my life.

well hello hello good people of the good world. i have finally crawled out of my little cave and brought my sorry ass here to do a proper update of my life. yes i kind of fell off the grid couple of weeks back. my world was kind of spiralling a little crazy. sickness, exams, worries, obligations, adult woos. i shall tap of those today.. like i said, proper update first.


sickness. apparently i found my hearing to be bad as i felt my ear getting blocked by something two weeks ago or so. initially i thought it was due to some common cold or what not.. then i realised i was not showing signs of flu or cough. yawning and swallowing hard did not help with the blockage in my ear. so after a week's delay i went to my family doctor to learn that i have some infection in my throat that spread to my middle ear. the blocking feeling is due to that. wow.. just wow. never in my last 24 years i have had experience such an infection. first time for everything? well this one isn't a good first time thing. so yeah.. powerful infection.. currently still in midst of recovering. fingers crossed.

exams. three finals, all core modules, were good enough to force me to my little cave and mug my ass off. core module 1, i failed midterms rather badly and had to create a miracle in hope to score a B+ at least. well the finals was slightly better for me i guess. i was more calm and could do more questions as compared to midterms. the rest is up to fate and bell curve. core module 2, easy module but time consuming finals. the lecturer commented that he would set a tougher paper than last year. he did and i was kind of glad i guess.. steep bell curve isn't a good thing. core module 3, so many careless mistakes made and i was so angry with myself. was feeling more angry than happy even though finals were over. ohh wells.. bell curve and fate then.

worries. i consider myself as one who plans ahead so when i am faced with too much uncertainty or tied up in a really messy ball of yarn i tend to overthink a little. so unwanted worries will kick in and this was what happened.. i was really stressed about the next step of FYP for i was totally stuck with the analysis part. so instead of concentrating on finals revision.. my mind tend to stray to think about that nonsense during reading week. well, slight better news is that earlier today i met my supervisor to clear certain doubts out and naturally more work is in placed this December.

obligations. yeah, my cousin got married earlier this week.. yeah right smack in the middle of my exam period. nonetheless, obligation. mental note to self.. having an outdoor wedding is really romantic.. but not practical in a weather like Singapore's.

adult woos. i am in my final year. the first semester has passed. means i am so close to graduating. means i have to start hunting for jobs really soon. a little sad to think of such a thing but i guess that is life. one chapter ends so as to allow another to begin. job hunting will be the start of the many adult woos.

so winter is here. no, not the "Game of Thrones" winter but rather winter break. while i know i have to cover tons of grounds in my FYP during this few weeks, i hope i can make full use of this break to relax and enjoy while i attend to some of my adult woos. until next time then, cheers.