Friday, January 11, 2019

hard

yes this is an update of my life.

long week but glad the weekends are here. last weekend was hectic and the past weekdays have been taxing on the brain, especially the last 2 days. i am just glad to have a slightly slower and less eventful weekend this week.

need some time to check on the many things i am juggling. i find myself question if i am trying too hard or working too hard for my own good. "working" not necessarily mean going to office that "working". some people might call the entire process as adulting.. i can't think of a better word or phrase to explain it so let's stick to that generic term for now. so yes, time to ownself check ownself for a couple of days. until next time then, cheers.

Thursday, January 10, 2019

the need to shop

yes this is an update of my life.

was having a rather interesting conversation with my mum earlier over dinner. as CNY draws near, many are looking to get the usual stuff like abalone, new clothes, new shoes and many many other things. one constant throughout the many years in my family is new clothes.. regardless of how unwilling i am to get new clothes, i will get sick of my mum's nagging and buy couple of new ones.

so, this year was no different.. earlier i decided to challenge her ideology again. after couple of prompts she commented that the reason why one should get new clothes for CNY is to boost self-esteem. my immediate reaction was to laugh. i don't know i should feel sorry for my self or not because i couldn't view it in that light. if i do not wear new clothes during CNY, my self-esteem takes no blow. even if i wear new clothes, i do not feel an increase in self-esteem as well. i think there is a higher chance of me getting irritated at wearing new clothes that i might have gotten the wrong size or the material wasn't as great as i expected.

nonetheless, to appease the queen, i shall snoop around and see where i end up. no.. the need to shop isn't for self-esteem but rather self-protection from the nagging. until next time then, cheers.