checkpoint

yes this is an update of my life.

i've been getting signals. signals to tell me to take a breather these few days. take a breather.. taking my mind of school work and relax. yes i will. i am currently not too far away behind in terms of academics i guess. i can afford to relax a little. during this period of time, apart from enjoying the upcoming CNY, i will take time to ponder over random things and coming to conclusions.. well, hopefully, to most of them.

actually i have doing some over the last few weeks as well. some of which i have started typing out and what not whenever i update on my life. also, some others which i typed out in a file and yet to post them here. nonetheless, i guess this period of time will be more for such things. on top of these, i guess it is a good time to check oneself.

yeah 2016 has just began and it is barely a quarter through but checking oneself means seeing past the last month. what have i achieved? what do i want to achieve in the near future? am i on the path i hope and want to be on? what is my motivation? where will i be going? these questions will just go on and on and on.. point is these are checkpoints to monitor myself i guess.

you see, i think having a purpose is really important. so long i know exactly what i want and how i am going to try to reach my destination, things will flow. many things actually arise from the purpose. motivation. discipline. improvement. achievement. all these are the few things that be driven by a purpose.

okay.. too philosophical but yeah you get the idea. until next time then, cheers.

old jam

an acoustic version of a famous old song. enjoy.

not teachers

yes this is an update of my life.

been busy with catching up school work until i nearly forgot something that is more important than studying. my health. got a slight shock yesterday when my bad headache hit and i was feeling a little warmer than usual. too warm for comfort. throughout the remaining of the day i kept spamming water despite having to make way more trips to the toilet to pee. didn't do anything productive but slept and rest a lot. but you know what? not guilty. probably because if i really fall sick, the guilt of not taking care of my health will be so much greater than wasting a day away without revision.

so back to today. i have lots of work to catch up and CNY is round the corner. guess the calendar and my body highlighted my need to take a slight breather for now. at least until after the first few days of CNY. shall not stress too much over undone work or what not.

however, the main thing i wanted to highlight today isn't exactly those. i want to talk about my lecturers. like the title of this post mentioned, they are not teachers.. so expect a hell lot of difference. i think ever since coming to college, a lecturer is defined as one who is also a teacher. what's the difference? well.. a lot.

a lecturer teach for the sake of teaching most of the time. he/she will just ramble through all the information at a speed he/she deem fitting regardless of the students' struggles to catch every piece. a lecturer will find his/her voice loud enough if he/she can hear himself/herself. he/she will murmur or what.. whether the students can hear it doesn't concern him/her. a lecturer doesn't monitor your progress very closely. he/she doesn't care if you fail to pass an assignment or what not.. for at the end of the day, most of them would just teach, mark papers, give you a grade.

well, obviously a teacher is way more than a lecturer. a teacher cares for your progress. a teacher ensures no student is left behind. a teacher bugs you for your own good. ohh man.. i am starting to appreciate the teachers who have taught me even more. but for now.. i think that is just life in college.

no point regretting or what not. i just thought of all these again recently. as i progress more as an undergraduate i see more lecturers than teachers who are teaching my modules. students are thrown to college to struggle and emerge victorious at the end of 3 or 4 years. along the way, we can only hope we meet more teachers than lecturers. until next time then, cheers.