shadow monster

yes this is an update of my life.

time check, week 11 of semester 1 of year 4. things are not getting easier for sure. this coming few days and next week will be one hell of a hectic ride. nonetheless, i choose to remain positive and stand up from the recent blow to the face as i take on the final three weeks of the semester.

piles of submissions are mounting during these two weeks. FYP is going slightly smooth i guess.. the results churned out is a little questionable and weird but real data is as such i guess. there are bound to be limitations in a real dataset. am expected to churn out some presentation slides to present to my co-supervisor soon as well. mad rush for time but necessary i guess. would be good to obtain more insights on how this project can be carried on from where i am right now. i am also aware that i am doing slightly faster than expected hence i would say FYP is doing alright.. at least among the other modules i am reading.

on to something more light hearted.. here is a snapshot from the second season of "Stranger Things". still wondering if there will be future seasons and episodes of this show. the shadow monster sure instilled quite a fear throughout this season but slightly disappointed that it has not much screen time haha. until next time then, cheers.

brooding

yes this is an update of my life.

unfortunately, yes, i am still harping on the fact that i am on the left tail as mentioned in the previous post. going to comment a little more before moving on to something better.

about four years ago.. with a shitty A levels results i managed to got into NUS.. not by the conventional method but rather after the discretionary admission interview. till date, i still remember the anxiety as i waited for the outcome of the interview back then. upon knowing that i was accepted into NUS, i was really elated and promised myself to never be on the extreme left side of the curve. being there throughout JC and even among the applicants entering Science course in NUS have made me vow never to be there again. i wanted to work hard to prevent such things from happening.

well, it did went well as i strive to stay on the correct side for 3+ years. this recent one reminds me of where i was back in those days where grades told me i am a stupid and dumb student. therefore, it takes a little toll on me. grit, Alvin, grit. yes, i know, i have to get up soon.

moving on to better things. managed to finish binge watching season 2 of "Stranger Things". this season is definitely better than the first. the ending was better. the action was better. the plot was better. nonetheless, there are still questions unanswered and new stuff introduced.. which can be developed in future seasons. i wonder will there be any more seasons after this. either way.. even if this is the last season, i think it would not be that bad as well. you should watch. until next time then, cheers.

left tail

yes this is an update of my life.

yet another week past. still surviving mentally but barely. this past week has been a rather rollercoaster ride as well. from things to be really happy about to things to be really sad/angry about. two extremes occurring within a really short time.

college is generally a place where stress is mounting continuously but the company one has can really make a real difference. this is where i could be happy about the past week. the Science subcommittee i'm in has finally met.. twice in the last week to iron out many things. had welcome tea earlier in the week where we really met one another like how new people meet in an orientation camp.. over food, little games and random chit chats. our first more serious meeting went great as well.. am part of the video and photography team. cannot wait to start working with the group of awesome people and learning new things throughout this academic year.

so thankful for such great company. people ask how come among the crazy busy life of college, i still want to fork out time for such CCA. well, personally such avenue is a great way to enforce relaxation from the mundane books and papers. who knows, this would be beneficial when i look back few years from now.

alright, going to touch on the sad part a little as well.. for most personal battles are fought in one's head. i think one of the saddest thing one can experience while studying or working is that after putting in all that you can and what not, you are being told that you are just not good enough.. that's it. well, i had this familiar experience when i got back one of the midterm result this past week. it was the worst in recent semesters.. probably worse than the previous worst result way back in year 1 semester 1. however, that time there was S/U option for core modules.. but this time.. no.

how bad? let's just say i am sitting "comfortably" on the left most side of the bell curve quartile. it os so going to be difficult climb from here on out.. and i wonder if it is even possible. like i said, most battles are fought in one's head. i am still finding the strength and motivation to stand up after this fatal fall.

on the other note, i also think i need a friend replacement for a person.. haha. too many times and effort wasted trying to build one side of the bridge.. hmm. until next time then, cheers.