left tail

yes this is an update of my life.

yet another week past. still surviving mentally but barely. this past week has been a rather rollercoaster ride as well. from things to be really happy about to things to be really sad/angry about. two extremes occurring within a really short time.

college is generally a place where stress is mounting continuously but the company one has can really make a real difference. this is where i could be happy about the past week. the Science subcommittee i'm in has finally met.. twice in the last week to iron out many things. had welcome tea earlier in the week where we really met one another like how new people meet in an orientation camp.. over food, little games and random chit chats. our first more serious meeting went great as well.. am part of the video and photography team. cannot wait to start working with the group of awesome people and learning new things throughout this academic year.

so thankful for such great company. people ask how come among the crazy busy life of college, i still want to fork out time for such CCA. well, personally such avenue is a great way to enforce relaxation from the mundane books and papers. who knows, this would be beneficial when i look back few years from now.

alright, going to touch on the sad part a little as well.. for most personal battles are fought in one's head. i think one of the saddest thing one can experience while studying or working is that after putting in all that you can and what not, you are being told that you are just not good enough.. that's it. well, i had this familiar experience when i got back one of the midterm result this past week. it was the worst in recent semesters.. probably worse than the previous worst result way back in year 1 semester 1. however, that time there was S/U option for core modules.. but this time.. no.

how bad? let's just say i am sitting "comfortably" on the left most side of the bell curve quartile. it os so going to be difficult climb from here on out.. and i wonder if it is even possible. like i said, most battles are fought in one's head. i am still finding the strength and motivation to stand up after this fatal fall.

on the other note, i also think i need a friend replacement for a person.. haha. too many times and effort wasted trying to build one side of the bridge.. hmm. until next time then, cheers.