left tail

yes this is an update of my life.

yet another week past. still surviving mentally but barely. this past week has been a rather rollercoaster ride as well. from things to be really happy about to things to be really sad/angry about. two extremes occurring within a really short time.

college is generally a place where stress is mounting continuously but the company one has can really make a real difference. this is where i could be happy about the past week. the Science subcommittee i'm in has finally met.. twice in the last week to iron out many things. had welcome tea earlier in the week where we really met one another like how new people meet in an orientation camp.. over food, little games and random chit chats. our first more serious meeting went great as well.. am part of the video and photography team. cannot wait to start working with the group of awesome people and learning new things throughout this academic year.

so thankful for such great company. people ask how come among the crazy busy life of college, i still want to fork out time for such CCA. well, personally such avenue is a great way to enforce relaxation from the mundane books and papers. who knows, this would be beneficial when i look back few years from now.

alright, going to touch on the sad part a little as well.. for most personal battles are fought in one's head. i think one of the saddest thing one can experience while studying or working is that after putting in all that you can and what not, you are being told that you are just not good enough.. that's it. well, i had this familiar experience when i got back one of the midterm result this past week. it was the worst in recent semesters.. probably worse than the previous worst result way back in year 1 semester 1. however, that time there was S/U option for core modules.. but this time.. no.

how bad? let's just say i am sitting "comfortably" on the left most side of the bell curve quartile. it os so going to be difficult climb from here on out.. and i wonder if it is even possible. like i said, most battles are fought in one's head. i am still finding the strength and motivation to stand up after this fatal fall.

on the other note, i also think i need a friend replacement for a person.. haha. too many times and effort wasted trying to build one side of the bridge.. hmm. until next time then, cheers.

teased by the heavens

yes this is an update of my life.

this is the first Wednesday since the beginning of the semester where i can really relax and not do anything much related to school. for the past 9 weeks, my Wednesdays have be filled with school work related stuff and tuition. those tuition classes were on Wednesday were in place as the PSLE exams were near back then. now, PSLE is over and i am somewhat on pace with my school work.. hence, the possibility of relaxing today.

feels as though i am on holiday but i know this is just for today. tomorrow will be back to the grind. last evening's first meeting with subcommittee members was great. food was great, time spent together was great. yeah, there were awkward silences at times but hey for the first time we are meeting, i got to say it was more lively than i expected. real work begins tomorrow evening as we enter our first official meeting to iron out roles and what not.

last week was cool in terms of the weather on campus but this week? the heavens are teasing us.. gloomy and cloudy more often than sunny but.. no rain. not as cooling as last week and each day i hope that rain comes to keep the grounds cooler. time to head back tocatch up on the shows i am following. until next time then, cheers.

the breeze we need

yes this is an update of my life.

anyone else as hyped as me for the season 2 of "Stranger Things"? well.. counting the days to Friday.. then i can hide in a corner all weekend to watch the entire season.

today was surprisingly a slightly more productive day than i expected it to be. two factors i guess. one, the weather. two, i refused to nap in the afternoon like i usually do. the entire week last week was so hot and humid.. thankfully this morning's weather was chilling and cold enough to make my room temperature to be at a comfortable level. woke up to slight rain and then breeze took over the entire morning. it is the breeze we need, not the breeze we deserve.. lol.

if you did not get that reference then it is alright. moving on, still working on the useless assignment i was talking about couple of posts back. this lecturer last warning.. just released another piece of work that has to been handed in on the same day as his useless assignment. this week and next week will be slightly of a hell week for me i guess.. well at least in terms of submission. nonetheless, outside of academics, there are events to look forward to as well. may i have the strength and wisdom to pull through. until next time then, cheers.