life's hard

yes this is an update of my life.

threading in really deep waters these days with so much at times i wonder am i biting more than i can actually chew. i love challenges but maybe my brain has its limits to the amount i can on at a single point. on the brighter side, i will be heading to the UK in less than a month!

life's hard. not that i just realised but just got reminded that this is so. i consider myself as a realist and i accept the fact that there are always somethings that are definitely beyond what i can do. then it circles round back to whether putting in your best is enough and worth it. the endless internal debate soon follow. on one side, yeah no matter what put in your best and take the chances you get, something might turn out great. on the other side, doing that might be exhausting since more than half of the tries might be lead to a failure. then again among the successes, each success is usually better than expected. so.. yeah.. this.. cycle goes on.

for now, i am on the side on putting in my best no matter what. yeah, i admit some hits are quite painful but i don't think it is enough to give up. maybe i am part optimist after all. until next time then, cheers.