yes this is an update of my life.
well, describing my current state would be the title of this post. it is as obvious as it can be. 4 projects/assignments at hand all to be done within the next two weeks. so exhausting. i find myself being less worried about the things that i ought to worry about.. like the fact that i have yet to secure an internship.. still waiting for few replies.
i have come to my sense on the internship thing already. yes, i have been picky about the internship i applying for this summer because i want to be part of something that i really want to do in the future. which means.. areas relating to epidemiology, public health, national development and biostatistics. so if i don't get then maybe they deem me as not fitting enough as i thought i am. nonetheless, not having an internship this summer isn't the end of the world anyway. i would have more time to pick up new programming knowledge and more free time. well then.. back to the immense workload. until next time then, cheers.
Thursday, March 30, 2017
Tuesday, March 28, 2017
Monday, March 27, 2017
Sunday, March 26, 2017
Thursday, March 23, 2017
simple joys
yes this is an update of my blog.
something small but impactful happened earlier today and i realised that recently i have been giving myself lots of unnecessary stress. small problems probably seen as out-of-proportion issues. over-thinking and brooding too much can have bad side effects. it's time to be sitting down.. not in motion or panic.. appreciating the other simple joys i have around.. those that i have overlooked over the past few days.
guess this is a weakness of mine that will never go away. not necessary a bad thing but still something to keep in check every now and then. i realised i have always been setting high standards for myself. while doing so has helped me to be where i am now in certain way.. but at what cost? cost of focusing on a thing for too long a time and too much effort spent on trying to perfect it. how high a standard is deemed "too high" to be set for oneself anyway?
well for an example, when it comes to studies, for example, i will always want to aim to score above B+ for every module and whenever i feel that i am losing grip to that goal, i get annoyed. at such times when my mum realised the expectations i have for myself.. she will comment "can pass can already". i'm always so puzzled whenever she said so. at times like this, i am not sure if her expectations for me are too low for my liking or just my expectations for myself is too high. of course she believed that it is the latter.
well, i am still caught in how should i set my expectations. not only for studies but in other areas too but just areas that either i don't feel comfortable typing in an open blog or i can't figure how to put them into words. so yeah, as of now, i acknowledge this problem with me. this problem can be a strength, a driving force to strive for excellence but too much can cause me to overlook other areas that are important as well. i am at the stage of correcting that issue right now. simple joys and other things are important as well. small blessings, though small, are collectively larger than any problems i have. time to find the optimism and move forward. until next time then, cheers.
something small but impactful happened earlier today and i realised that recently i have been giving myself lots of unnecessary stress. small problems probably seen as out-of-proportion issues. over-thinking and brooding too much can have bad side effects. it's time to be sitting down.. not in motion or panic.. appreciating the other simple joys i have around.. those that i have overlooked over the past few days.
guess this is a weakness of mine that will never go away. not necessary a bad thing but still something to keep in check every now and then. i realised i have always been setting high standards for myself. while doing so has helped me to be where i am now in certain way.. but at what cost? cost of focusing on a thing for too long a time and too much effort spent on trying to perfect it. how high a standard is deemed "too high" to be set for oneself anyway?
well for an example, when it comes to studies, for example, i will always want to aim to score above B+ for every module and whenever i feel that i am losing grip to that goal, i get annoyed. at such times when my mum realised the expectations i have for myself.. she will comment "can pass can already". i'm always so puzzled whenever she said so. at times like this, i am not sure if her expectations for me are too low for my liking or just my expectations for myself is too high. of course she believed that it is the latter.
well, i am still caught in how should i set my expectations. not only for studies but in other areas too but just areas that either i don't feel comfortable typing in an open blog or i can't figure how to put them into words. so yeah, as of now, i acknowledge this problem with me. this problem can be a strength, a driving force to strive for excellence but too much can cause me to overlook other areas that are important as well. i am at the stage of correcting that issue right now. simple joys and other things are important as well. small blessings, though small, are collectively larger than any problems i have. time to find the optimism and move forward. until next time then, cheers.
Wednesday, March 22, 2017
distract from distraction
yes this is an update of my life.
lately i find myself having a silly distraction that sort of hinders my studies and i have no idea how am i suppose to deal with this shit. okay, i will not explain explicit what distraction it is so i am just going to refer that distraction as the "silly distraction". yeah for creativity.
so moving on, this is the time of the semester where project, submission, assignment deadlines are piling up. also, this is the time of the semester where finals are way closer than the start of this semester. week 10 and i ought to be way more focused than i am today. obviously and unfortunately, i am not thanks to this "silly distraction". this "silly distraction" has occurred in the past and somehow i have been able to get over it rather quick and what not.. but somehow not this time. so i am still in search of a better distraction to distract myself from this "silly distraction".
cannot afford to add on more shows since time is way too limited now. i need a distraction that can disrupt thoughts on the "silly distraction" and actually keep my brain more occupied with something more useful. until next time then, cheers.
lately i find myself having a silly distraction that sort of hinders my studies and i have no idea how am i suppose to deal with this shit. okay, i will not explain explicit what distraction it is so i am just going to refer that distraction as the "silly distraction". yeah for creativity.
so moving on, this is the time of the semester where project, submission, assignment deadlines are piling up. also, this is the time of the semester where finals are way closer than the start of this semester. week 10 and i ought to be way more focused than i am today. obviously and unfortunately, i am not thanks to this "silly distraction". this "silly distraction" has occurred in the past and somehow i have been able to get over it rather quick and what not.. but somehow not this time. so i am still in search of a better distraction to distract myself from this "silly distraction".
cannot afford to add on more shows since time is way too limited now. i need a distraction that can disrupt thoughts on the "silly distraction" and actually keep my brain more occupied with something more useful. until next time then, cheers.
Tuesday, March 21, 2017
passengers
so going to review on another movie i just watched recently again. starring Chris Pratt and Jennifer Lawrence, the movie is titled "Passengers". this movie is basically about the voyage from our current to a new earth using some cool ship that can sustain life over the course of the journey. the journey takes many many many years and hence humans are put into induced coma until 3 months before the arrival to the new place. however, Chris Pratt's character woke up decades earlier after an apparent meteor shower hit the ship and compromised parts of the ship. the story follows him, and later, Jennifer Lawrence's character, survival on the ship as the damage from the meteor shower slowly compromising more and more functions and parts of the ships.
well personally for movies where the characters are that few, i think it is even more important to develop the character and plot well. this movie has done both relatively well. in case you are wondering, the movie has more characters than the two familiar faces on the poster above. nonetheless, total character count is very different from your typical movies.
so yes, plot is decent though the climax could have been a little longer. the characters are well developed. the concept itself is rather new and refreshing. realistic or not.. probably not for now but who knows what the future might hold.. haha, just saying. worth watching of course, or i would not even be talking about it here.
well personally for movies where the characters are that few, i think it is even more important to develop the character and plot well. this movie has done both relatively well. in case you are wondering, the movie has more characters than the two familiar faces on the poster above. nonetheless, total character count is very different from your typical movies.
so yes, plot is decent though the climax could have been a little longer. the characters are well developed. the concept itself is rather new and refreshing. realistic or not.. probably not for now but who knows what the future might hold.. haha, just saying. worth watching of course, or i would not even be talking about it here.
Monday, March 20, 2017
Saturday, March 18, 2017
the new stupid
all too often, we would tend to get the excuse from people you wish to meet that he/she is busy with some other things. worse, there are ones who will use that cheap excuse to blow you off in the last minute. so allow me to introduce an article that managed to translate some my thoughts of such incidents.
quotes after the hyperlink are those that really seem to be parallel with how i feel. go ahead and read to see the real messages sent when you tell someone you are a little too busy to meet.
Busy is the New Stupid
"For most of us, we waste time. We invest our precious time on things that we shouldn't. And that means we have less hours to invest wisely, on things that do matter. That might be improving our professional skills, pursuing a tremendous business opportunity, investing in a hobby, or simply spending more time with the people we love."
"Because as a society we've come to glorify busy. We've all been tricked into believing that if we are busy we are important."
"Busyness creates more woulda, coulda and shoulda than anything else in our life - which ultimately leads to regret. And regret sucks."
quotes after the hyperlink are those that really seem to be parallel with how i feel. go ahead and read to see the real messages sent when you tell someone you are a little too busy to meet.
Busy is the New Stupid
"For most of us, we waste time. We invest our precious time on things that we shouldn't. And that means we have less hours to invest wisely, on things that do matter. That might be improving our professional skills, pursuing a tremendous business opportunity, investing in a hobby, or simply spending more time with the people we love."
"Because as a society we've come to glorify busy. We've all been tricked into believing that if we are busy we are important."
"Busyness creates more woulda, coulda and shoulda than anything else in our life - which ultimately leads to regret. And regret sucks."
Friday, March 17, 2017
books are small
yes this is an update of my life.
hey, i'm not going to talk about my modules today. instead i want to talk about something slightly more interesting but more scary at the same time. currently, i am still in the midst of finding a suitable summer internship role to really make use of the learning experience to put my statistical skills and knowledge into real applications.
rejections are natural. however, there have been few interviews as well.. some still awaiting result. then there are few in process of reading my application as well. for now, let's talk about the interviews i have so far. i am privileged to have been called for interviews with some big organisations/companies. nonetheless, the questions asked can be deeper and more challenging. among all the interviews i have been to so far, i have realise just one thing. books are really small. like i know learning through books and classes is one thing compared to working outside. however, i am shocked and amazed at the same time as i see the gap from school to the outside world.
technical questions asked can be prepared but not entirely. there will be time when such questions become so specific that no books of Google searches can really help you. it is difficult to explain in detail but i guess sooner or later you will find out what i mean.
beaten down many times but never staying down.. i'm stubborn like that. until next time then, cheers.
hey, i'm not going to talk about my modules today. instead i want to talk about something slightly more interesting but more scary at the same time. currently, i am still in the midst of finding a suitable summer internship role to really make use of the learning experience to put my statistical skills and knowledge into real applications.
rejections are natural. however, there have been few interviews as well.. some still awaiting result. then there are few in process of reading my application as well. for now, let's talk about the interviews i have so far. i am privileged to have been called for interviews with some big organisations/companies. nonetheless, the questions asked can be deeper and more challenging. among all the interviews i have been to so far, i have realise just one thing. books are really small. like i know learning through books and classes is one thing compared to working outside. however, i am shocked and amazed at the same time as i see the gap from school to the outside world.
technical questions asked can be prepared but not entirely. there will be time when such questions become so specific that no books of Google searches can really help you. it is difficult to explain in detail but i guess sooner or later you will find out what i mean.
beaten down many times but never staying down.. i'm stubborn like that. until next time then, cheers.
Thursday, March 16, 2017
Wednesday, March 15, 2017
Saturday, March 11, 2017
long ass week
yes this is an update of my life.
this is finally a weekend that i will be sleeping over in my warm bed back in the east of Singapore for two nights. had to camp through the weekend last week due to the fact that i had midterms on Saturday morning and that i needed alone quiet time to revise for the killer paper on Monday. well, now midterms are over, my going-home schedule is back to normal.. and boy i am glad.
home. not matter how nice a place you have away from your family, the feeling is never the same as compared to the place where all of you are together. says something.. doesn't matter the things you have around you.. the people around you are always out-weighing them. apart from being with them more this weekend, i'm enjoying more rest time. okay, i had more than enough rest time last few days but heck.. i am using this excuse as a reason to not touch too much work. to be fair, the past week felt so damn freaking long.
i am fully aware as to what comes next in this crazy semester. i have like two active projects waiting.. and another like three more assignments and one project to follow next. i have entered the point of the semester where each day past is deemed as i have survived another day rather than living. until next time then, cheers.
this is finally a weekend that i will be sleeping over in my warm bed back in the east of Singapore for two nights. had to camp through the weekend last week due to the fact that i had midterms on Saturday morning and that i needed alone quiet time to revise for the killer paper on Monday. well, now midterms are over, my going-home schedule is back to normal.. and boy i am glad.
home. not matter how nice a place you have away from your family, the feeling is never the same as compared to the place where all of you are together. says something.. doesn't matter the things you have around you.. the people around you are always out-weighing them. apart from being with them more this weekend, i'm enjoying more rest time. okay, i had more than enough rest time last few days but heck.. i am using this excuse as a reason to not touch too much work. to be fair, the past week felt so damn freaking long.
i am fully aware as to what comes next in this crazy semester. i have like two active projects waiting.. and another like three more assignments and one project to follow next. i have entered the point of the semester where each day past is deemed as i have survived another day rather than living. until next time then, cheers.
Thursday, March 9, 2017
maybe time
yes this is an update of my life.
woah end of the 8th week is just a day away. not that surprising especially when i see the amount of projects and assignments streaming in ever since my midterms are over. well this is the phase of the semester where the form of busy is entirely different from the past seven weeks of so. i've survived so long i'm sure i can survive this as well. just need to whine and complain here. letting off steam is a good form of stress relief anyway.
talking about stress, i am slightly more stress about the fact that i have yet to secure an internship. maybe it is about time to panic i guess. then again, recently someone who is working in the statistics field who has great experience in the field highlighted something that differed quite a lot from my perception of summer internship. he noted that internship isn't a priority in college. priority is learning things well, picking new valuable skills during holidays that aren't taught in modules.. and on top of that enjoy the life of a student. hmm.. thoughts? until next time then, cheers.
woah end of the 8th week is just a day away. not that surprising especially when i see the amount of projects and assignments streaming in ever since my midterms are over. well this is the phase of the semester where the form of busy is entirely different from the past seven weeks of so. i've survived so long i'm sure i can survive this as well. just need to whine and complain here. letting off steam is a good form of stress relief anyway.
talking about stress, i am slightly more stress about the fact that i have yet to secure an internship. maybe it is about time to panic i guess. then again, recently someone who is working in the statistics field who has great experience in the field highlighted something that differed quite a lot from my perception of summer internship. he noted that internship isn't a priority in college. priority is learning things well, picking new valuable skills during holidays that aren't taught in modules.. and on top of that enjoy the life of a student. hmm.. thoughts? until next time then, cheers.
Wednesday, March 8, 2017
Monday, March 6, 2017
Sunday, March 5, 2017
movie therapy
yes this is an update of my life.
brain is officially saturated.. guess whatever i can do in preparation for tomorrow's paper has been done already. any additional effort might just reverse the effect. i was told, and now believe, that learning and revising for a paper is an increasing function until it peaks then no matter what you do there will not be anything that pushes it higher. kind of like the bell curve, with the x-axis being the amount of efforts put in. so i feel that i am at the peak. all i have to do is to wait for tomorrow morning. cannot wait for this shit to be over.
yesterday was a good day with movie therapy. caught "Logan" with the fatbro and i would say the movie is damn awesome.. though some sites online did overrated it a little. nonetheless, i feel the casting is really good and each character development has been done right. length of the movie is kind of long but not as draggy as i though a 2+ hour movie would be.
i realised that in recent days and weeks i have been watching a lot of movies.. be it online or in cinemas. movie therapy.. and show therapy helps me a lot i guess. with that said, i have another movie tonight to watch.. lol. shall post reviews now and then when i get the feels. until next time then, cheers.
brain is officially saturated.. guess whatever i can do in preparation for tomorrow's paper has been done already. any additional effort might just reverse the effect. i was told, and now believe, that learning and revising for a paper is an increasing function until it peaks then no matter what you do there will not be anything that pushes it higher. kind of like the bell curve, with the x-axis being the amount of efforts put in. so i feel that i am at the peak. all i have to do is to wait for tomorrow morning. cannot wait for this shit to be over.
yesterday was a good day with movie therapy. caught "Logan" with the fatbro and i would say the movie is damn awesome.. though some sites online did overrated it a little. nonetheless, i feel the casting is really good and each character development has been done right. length of the movie is kind of long but not as draggy as i though a 2+ hour movie would be.
i realised that in recent days and weeks i have been watching a lot of movies.. be it online or in cinemas. movie therapy.. and show therapy helps me a lot i guess. with that said, i have another movie tonight to watch.. lol. shall post reviews now and then when i get the feels. until next time then, cheers.
Saturday, March 4, 2017
calm before the storm
yes this is an update of my life.
happy weekends everybody. i got reminded that it will be week 8 soon. in the midst of catching up on classes and trying to survive day by day, i have failed to see how time flies yet again. nonetheless, i choose to believe that this is so due to the fact that i am focused and making full use of whatever time i have. this morning was the second midterm paper. simple paper.. hopefully i did not make any careless mistake. one mark could well be the difference between the grade i am aiming for.
rest of the Saturday will be nothing much considering that Saturdays will be my tuition days. conserving energy and giving my fullest attention to the students. many dumb and ignorant people love to remark that being a tutor is easy since you are teaching whatever you know. well, knowing and understanding on your side is one thing.. teaching and conveying them across effectively is another thing. different students require different methods of teaching and practise in order for them to ace. lots of energy is used to make each lesson for each student best fit for him/her. yes, content doesn't change much each year but students do more often than not.
being a tutor has the greatest perk of faster cash flow as compared to the usual part-time jobs at malls or fairs. nonetheless, every job has its own challenges.
okay, deviated too far. so yeah tuition later and now blogging before preparing the materials for the subsequent tuition classes. thereafter, headed to watch "Logan". shall let you all know how it is. come tomorrow i have to work hard for the killer paper on Monday. until next time then, cheers.
happy weekends everybody. i got reminded that it will be week 8 soon. in the midst of catching up on classes and trying to survive day by day, i have failed to see how time flies yet again. nonetheless, i choose to believe that this is so due to the fact that i am focused and making full use of whatever time i have. this morning was the second midterm paper. simple paper.. hopefully i did not make any careless mistake. one mark could well be the difference between the grade i am aiming for.
rest of the Saturday will be nothing much considering that Saturdays will be my tuition days. conserving energy and giving my fullest attention to the students. many dumb and ignorant people love to remark that being a tutor is easy since you are teaching whatever you know. well, knowing and understanding on your side is one thing.. teaching and conveying them across effectively is another thing. different students require different methods of teaching and practise in order for them to ace. lots of energy is used to make each lesson for each student best fit for him/her. yes, content doesn't change much each year but students do more often than not.
being a tutor has the greatest perk of faster cash flow as compared to the usual part-time jobs at malls or fairs. nonetheless, every job has its own challenges.
okay, deviated too far. so yeah tuition later and now blogging before preparing the materials for the subsequent tuition classes. thereafter, headed to watch "Logan". shall let you all know how it is. come tomorrow i have to work hard for the killer paper on Monday. until next time then, cheers.
Friday, March 3, 2017
long middle drag
yes this is an update of my life.
for those who have known me through school and have been through many exam periods with will probably recall that i dislike exam periods that are long and draggy. i would rather have papers cramped into the few days. the moment the first paper has begun.. i rather the last day or the last paper be here as soon as possible.
so yeah, that's my personal take. reason being is that the bulk of the preparation would be done prior to the start of the first paper. like even if one module is the last paper, i would have prepare for it before the start of the series of papers. during actual exam, brain juice is used extensively and hence not much left to be used for revision in between.
this round of midterms is silly. 3 papers over the course of 7 days.. one paper happen to be tomorrow.. yeah on a weekend. the most dreaded one will be on Monday. while the end of midterms draw close in terms of days left, obviously not number of papers left, i will have to switch gear soon to handle the subsequent assignments and projects. until next time then, cheers.
for those who have known me through school and have been through many exam periods with will probably recall that i dislike exam periods that are long and draggy. i would rather have papers cramped into the few days. the moment the first paper has begun.. i rather the last day or the last paper be here as soon as possible.
so yeah, that's my personal take. reason being is that the bulk of the preparation would be done prior to the start of the first paper. like even if one module is the last paper, i would have prepare for it before the start of the series of papers. during actual exam, brain juice is used extensively and hence not much left to be used for revision in between.
this round of midterms is silly. 3 papers over the course of 7 days.. one paper happen to be tomorrow.. yeah on a weekend. the most dreaded one will be on Monday. while the end of midterms draw close in terms of days left, obviously not number of papers left, i will have to switch gear soon to handle the subsequent assignments and projects. until next time then, cheers.
Thursday, March 2, 2017
Wednesday, March 1, 2017
collateral beauty
as promised, here is a personal take on a movie titled "Collateral Beauty" that i have watched recently. while professional critics rated this show poorly, fans review from IMDB hinted otherwise. took a gamble and watched it and man it was worth it.
the story is based on the story of a marketing company's boss starred by Will Smith. the beginning of the film showed a promising future of the company before it fast forward to three years later when he lost his daughter to illness. from there, he started to shut off everything and everyone around him, leading the company to times of struggles. few of his colleagues, including the co-owner decided to help him by hiring actors and actresses to play the role of the imaginary characters their dear friend has been writing to. these are "Love", "Death" and "Time". i shall leave the rest of the plot details out in case of spoilers.
so, my personal take that this movie is generally heart-warming and interesting apart from a slight flaw. the flaw being "Love", "Death" and "Time" are actual people. i think it would be cooler and more interesting if they are really spirits or something. nonetheless, the effect of the plot was well brought out. i love how the movie wraps everything up nicely towards the end. i think in the few years down the road, this movie will be one of the many christmas classic movies.. those televisions love to play during the festive season. worth watching.. go go go.
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