while many would deem this as a form an insecurity, i beg to differ. yeah might look like it seem a little so but i would take it as more of the feeling of fearing-for-the-future-since-i-cannot-always-predict-what-happens-next. hard to take in, i know. in simple terms, one rather stay in the present f it is good rather than to risk a bad future.
yeah i admit i got that fear or feeling or disease or insecurity or whatever you want to call it. well let me explain myself why i feel so.
ever regret things you did or choices you make? ever thought of reversing the time to a time where things were better right before certain steps you take? ever thought about where will you be in exactly a year's time?
these questions flash through my mind time and time again. and yes all these will feed and enhance the fear. i made choices i regret now and probably forever. i really want to relive certain parts of my life. being realistic and taking a break to pause and check, i love my life now and of course i hope this remains or improves but what are the odds of things happening otherwise? quite a bit i guess.
okay that's enough of that weird fear. no worries, this fear isn't a big impact to me. it is rather small but still worth bringing out and talk about it on a personal blog. life's like that. risks are involved. we gamble daily via choices we make. place your bets then cross fingers and hope for the best.
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