truth potato #8

this by Truth Potato taken from the Bored Panda website resonates strong with me. when i was younger, my mum always told me to be nice to others no matter what. i understand that she loves to see the best in people regardless of the number of bad things he/she has done but her advice led me to a phase of agony few years back.

shan't tell the grandfather story but let me add on to that picture with a few statements. there will be some who will only approach you when they need your help. there will be some who will be nice to you because they are going to ask you for a favour or would gain something for themselves by doing so. yes, be nice but don't ever be stupid. if there are a lot warning signs, just say no. no means no.

truth potato #7

haha.. okay this one by Truth Potato taken from Bored Panda website is tricky. i seriously have no idea if this is suppose to punch the reality into you or encourage you. well, i believe is the former. my take would be don't get too caught up with yourself and own interests while neglecting others. the world does not revolve around you.

infinite thoughts

yes this is an update of my life.

caught "Avengers: Infinity War" and don't worry, i will not be revealing anything about the plots and what not.. no spoilers. just going to say couple of things. first, infinite thoughts. walking out of the cinema, my head is filled with so much thoughts and questions. i am very curious how the next movie next year will carry on from where this one ends. there are so many possibilities and what not. second, emotion rollercoaster. your heart will take on an interesting ride throughout the rough 2.5 hours. you will experience different emotions for sure. third, no rest. the nature of the movie is such a way where there are tons of things happening at the same time and tons of characters to focus on.. all these led to the fact that it is mentally draining to watch the movie.. in a good way of course.

overall, the movie is really good. the past 10 years have been a good build up to this event. the only thing i hoped was that some of the character developments could be improved.. then again this would probably lead to the runtime to be longer than it already is. nonetheless, this movie is of the few ones that i would not mind going back to the cinema to pay to watch again. until next time then, cheers.

infinite wait

yes this is an update of my life.

the 10 years worth of wait has come down to this. so many films, so many minutes, so many emotions.. all leading to this big ass movie. finally, in about 12 hours' time, i will be watching the most anticipated of all time. that's right, talking about "Avengers: Infinity War".

not many things can get me to want to wake up early. most as a result of stress and what not.. but this is different. going to catch the first show in the cinema come tomorrow. i have never been so excited to watch a movie for a long long time. this is it.. hopefully it will not be a disappointment. no worries.. i will not reveal or spoil anything pertaining to the plot and what not. even if i were to talk about the movie after tomorrow, i will just highlight my feelings for it.. no spoilers. until next time then, cheers.

13th the Monday

yes this is an update of my life.

well i know the title is not talking about the date today but nonetheless it is useful in describing my day in just three words. today feels like the stereotypical bad omen 13th the Friday.. except it isn't Friday and isn't exactly the 13th.

yeah couple of bad things happened to me today but just going to highlight one since i don't feel very comfortable sharing others here. so today was the circuit assessment for my class 2B journey. the roads were slightly wet and i was a little worried. despite so, during the practice run i did pretty well.. but sadly this could not be translated to the real assessment as i made some old mistakes and new mistakes that i never thought i would make. don't worry, i am fine.. no accident or what not. sigh.. time to move on then. until next time then, cheers.

the 2nd lap

yes this is an update of my life.

wow what a tiring yet meaningful weekend. how ironic.. weekends suppose to be a time for me to catch up on my rest and what not. however, it wasn't for me these past two days. okay on top of the usual tuition classes, i had to help fatbro with some coding in R, went to cut my hair, went for a run in ages, hang out with my grandma.. tiring yet satisfactory to say the least.

done a lot of meaningful i guess. am very tired now since i have been out since 10am and just got to sit back and relax. today had tuition in the morning and then straight away headed out to fetch my grandma and went out to wander. may i have a decent sleep tonight and be ready to take on the second lap of my near-3-weeks of reading week. until next time then, cheers.

wings

a third, one half

yes this is an update of my life.

well, life is pretty relaxing these few days. the start of my 3-weeks reading week has begun and a third of it is gone after today. been slowly reading up on the lectures that i did not pay attention in.. well basically half of the semester stuff from my last level 4000 core module. coupled with FYP stuff, i did not really have the time to give it the full attention as required.. as such i am somewhat paying the price now. nonetheless, slowly catching up. slowly but surely.

as for class 2B licence go.. the next lesson would be the circuit obstacles assessment. been practising them for two lessons now and i hope i am ready for it this coming Monday. gosh.. excited and stressed about it at the same time. this isn't even the TP test yet.. lol. i am probably about halfway through to the TP test anyway.. still will take quite some time to clear. theory wise.. i am slowly gaining speed on clearing the RTT soon.

well, many things to look forward to in the coming couple of weeks. hopefully, some job applications will respond.. Avengers: Infinity War.. RTT.. circuit assessment.. end of my undergraduate life. until next time then, cheers.

truth potato #6

well, this post by Truth Potato taken from Bored Panda website hits the spot. to be honest, i am still figuring something related to this on my own as well. in the recent weeks, i have seen friends who are in long-term relationships breaking up. some of which are very surprising.. like those kind you would never ever expect.

then, on the other hand, i see those who dive fast into relationships after a recent break-ups or moving to marriage real quick. hmm.. what is love to these people?

truth potato #5

woots, finally a post by Truth Potato from Bored Panda website that has the harsh language. what am i to say other then truth hurts. haha.. ohh wells.

as i grow older i realised i start to only reach out to those few people i hold on dear to. i became very selective with close friends and friends. what exactly made me so? to date i am still figure as well.. my best answer would be just time and age. as life kicks in, everyone becomes very occupied with their stuff and what not. if they treasure you, they would find time for you, no excuses and no bullshit reasons. save a lot of trouble letting go those "ghosts" anyway.. save time, save money, save headache.

truth potato #4

here it is, yet another hint by Truth Potato from the Bored Panda website. haha.. this one is funny.. hopefully i am not one of those idiots. point is i guess that you can never be always right.. be open to opinions and ideas.

thinking back, i realised i was one of those idiots some time in secondary school.. thinking that i was always right and what not. well, incidents happened and i paid the price for it. haha, moving from those bad days i soon realised that it is always important to shut up and listen first. don't ever be so eager to say something or win every battles. those don't exactly count if you are not going to say or do something smart.

no class student

yes this an update of my life.

haha relax, the title is not talking about a low-ranking student. i just wrote it in a very literal sense to talk about myself. yeah.. my classes have ended. okay, correction, i have one more lecture tomorrow but i am not going to go for it.. HAHA. so that marks, unofficially, the end of my classes. i am literally a no class student.

almost three weeks to my first paper. about four more weeks to the end of it all.. my under graduate life. feels kind of surreal. this feeling is pretty messed up and confusing. i wonder how this transition will be like. have a couple of job applications and what not on hand right now. fingers crossed.

slowly kicking start my revision this week as well. on the side note, there is still this individual assignment that is due on next Sunday. aim to pass not to score haha.. final year syndrome. until next time then, cheers.

truth potato #3

well, the next Truth Potato abstract from Bored Panda website is here. never expect yourself to be able to please everyone else. the thing is not matter what you do, say or think, there will always be someone out there to shoot you or even hate you. then, i once heard that if you have haters, it would only mean that you stood up for something you believe strongly about. take comfort in that. be yourself.

truth potato #2

in another instalment of Truth Potato taken from Bored Panda website, this serves as a reminder that different people move at different pace.

i am guilty of such a notion at times. i always look around me to see if i am on pace with my peers and what not. took me quite a while to realise that in the process to improve myself, i have to just look forward. i can only compare to my past self to figure true progress. every now and then i will drift to compare my chapter to another person's other chapter.. source of unwanted agony.

slow start

yes this is an update of my life.

so with regards to my 2B riding lessons i have clear all the obstacles-related lessons. the next lesson would be the assessment of these obstacles. nonetheless, i feel that i still need a couple of lesson to brush up some of the obstacles before heading for the assessment class. cleared all the mandatory theory lessons as well. next up would be the internal evaluation of the theory test then the actual riding theory test. i wonder when would i be able to get my class 2B lesson.. hopefully before this half of the year ends or before i start working.. whichever is earlier.

speaking of which, i think ought to continue my hunt for employment soon as well. public health ohh public health why your positions so many need experience one? cannot give chance to entry level?

this week also marks the last week of classes. though there is one more week next week before the start of reading week.. all of my modules will be ending their content teaching by this week. only one has a revision lecture next week and that's about it. this gives me to almost 3 weeks of reading week lol.. i can afford a slow start but may i get the strength and perseverance to end this semester, this year, this stage of life on a high note. until next time then, cheers.

these days

the middle pole

this is an update of my life.

striking a balance can be somewhat challenging when something is way beyond your control. this will be a vague update but nonetheless i need to let off a little steam. say a bar magnet with north and south poles. these poles represent two ends of the spectrums of a given situation. more often than not, i would rather things happen around the middle rather than close to either of the two extreme poles.

now i am face with a situation presented in two situations.. yeah those two extreme poles. so what now? what is the next step? wonder how i will ultimately get this figured out.. hopefully soon as well. until next time then, cheers.

truth potato #1

here is the first of the many posts that would consist quotes from the Truth Potato taken from the Bored Panda site.

this quote reminds me of the reminder my dad used to say.. he used to remind me to always consider how fortunate i am. day in day out as we strive to be better than our yesterday selves and we would always be looking up to as we aim to soar or climb. we enjoy what we have with minimal thought on how they come about or how fortunate we are. my dad would then remind us that there are people who are struggling below and when possible, help them. was rather young when he first mentioned that but i did not really pay much attention until couple years back. so yes, be mindful of people around.. they are likely fighting battles you might never experience or comprehend. be thoughtful and nice.

BM philosophy

been wanting to share this for quite some time now. those who have ever watched at least one episode of Black Mirror should take a look at this video. enjoy.

The Philosophy of Black Mirror

direction

yes this is an update of my life.

semester is ending. undergraduate life is ending. student life is ending. there are so many paths and options out there. i see so many possible directions ahead but all i need is a clear direction. i find myself hesitating taking each time i think of taking a path i chose. am i weighing everything too much? should i just heck and power through without second thoughts?

life is going to get more complicated from here on out i guess. nonetheless, everyday i still put in my best and hope for the best. i might fear that at times my best is not good enough but for now, the light of hope is on.

the next couple of weeks would be slightly slower than the last two weeks i guess. i have one big ass assignment to clear only. FYP is done and classes are about to come to an end. man, how has this semester fly by just like that. i am still in shock. i can feel myself lagging in my level 4000 core module.. time to pull up my socks real soon.

anyway, those mundane stuff aside, i came across a interesting page from Bored Panda and might just share some thoughts from a post in the next few days. until next time then, cheers.

12MCs down

yes this is an update of my life.

a big part of my life is now gone. FYP assessments of course. the heaviest ever module is now done. i just have to make a little change to the report and send it to my external supervisor and i am so done with this.

i got to say the past 8 months have been a rather interesting experience with regards to taking on this individual FYP. i am so thankful to have great mentors with great patience to guide me through, putting me through thought processes to better myself and what not. so glad that they allowed me to explore in the area of biostatistics and public health research.. something of great interest to me.

done and dusted. thought the Q&A part of my presentation could have been done better but ohh wells.. no point thinking too much about it. the countdown to unemployment begins. until next time then, cheers.

seasons

am i a fool

yes this is an update of my life.

well, hello April. i avoided posting yesterday just in case some of my words were taken as jokes.. lol. despite April Fool's Day being over, i question if i am a fool very often lately. i find myself questioning my decision. i find myself questioning my priorities. i find myself question on my next step. i thought i have everything all planned out but then again i failed to see some of the unforeseen outcomes and what not.. which resulted to be adjusting and adapting on my feet. doing such alterations can be exhausting but i am still surviving.

those complex thoughts aside, i cannot wait for Wednesday to be over. the presentation of my FYP will take place during lunch time. omg, i know right.. lunch time. too bad that is the only time slot available in my supervisor and examiner timetables. nonetheless, i hope i will ace the presentation.. not panic.. not stammer too much. may i have the confidence and cool to take on the next obstacle of FYP. after that, it will just be the little 5% left to conquer.

motorbike lessons are going well i guess. tough i am like taking many lessons just to clear one "module" i guess i get to practise more. boost confidence and what not.. then again sad to see money fly now and then. until next time then, cheers.