your clock

yes this is an update of my life.

i came across a timely reminder earlier today. i guess recently i am rather caught up with the pace i am taking as compare to peers around me.. so much so at times i forgot to slow and appreciate the things around me. the link to the video that served as a timely reminder is below. do take a look and enjoy.

Everyone has a different clock. Wait for your time.

remember to not sweat about how fast or slow you are going, so long you are moving at a pace you feel right about. remember not to compare everyone's pace to your own. until next time then, cheers.

sides

yes this is an update of my life.

rainy weather. cool breeze. slightly more free. elements that push one to type out a decent post on the blog.. so here i am. there are many things that set my mind wander into deep thoughts and then i begin to question hard on my intentions, directions and goals. among all the million of thoughts racing through, i would like to collate a portion of them to talk about it here today.

"grass is always greener on the other side". i think this phrase does more harm than good. somehow people around love saying this as an excuse or justification in making a mistake or so before having to move on to the next option.. while initially those silly mistakes and decisions could have been avoided. yes, while that phrase serves as an encouragement for events that happen beyond one's control, we cannot live by that phrase.

this was kind of my problem in recent weeks. when i chance across an opportunity or chance, instead of making full use of it, i went to figure on the "what ifs". in the process, i lost couple of precious stuff. thank goodness that i realised fast enough to adjust my course accordingly before more damage is done. so, yes here i am cautioning you. treasure each step, treasure each opportunity, never let anything good slip away just because you were looking over to the greener side. the greener side might not be as great as the side you are on. brighter colours do not translate to better quality. until next time then, cheers.

single at 24

yes this is an update of my life.

well, i know i mentioned that i would do a proper update of the weekend but today is Monday.. i am late. wanted to do so last night but fetching my parents from their holiday trip took longer than expected and by the time i can rest and do so, it was near bedtime. so thought rather wait until this morning to do so.

yeah, my parents went for a short trip over the weekend and for me, i had the privilege to use the family car through the last three days. furthermore, fatbro did not come home and the entire house was under my car. lived the life of a single man in the last three days but instead of a middle-aged man in his 40s, i am the single man at 24.. lol.

living that kind of lifestyle really has its perks. freedom to go around. freedom to rest when i feel like to. freedom to pick where to eat. managed to get quite a lot of things done over the last three days. from late night supper to catching up with old friends to practising for my FYP presentation aloud at home.

FYP presentation practice is taking me longer than expected as well. trying to memorise or at least present without using any script. roughly 30 minutes of words.. this could take awhile. longest continuous speech i ever have to prepare for in my life so far. slides are done and content is more or less there.. just practise, practise and more practise. as for motorbike lesson, finally got to start on the obstacle courses. gosh fun yet so challenging.. this could take awhile as well. job hunting is temporary on hold as well. too many things to take care of to be active on it.

well then, start of yet another week.. short week and long weekend at the end of it.. can't wait. until next time then, cheers.

everflow

pause on mad rush

yes this is an update of my life.

update of my hectic life, actually. this past week has been really hectic and i am glad that it is Friday. i can finally pause on the mad rush and catch a breather. enjoy the weekends. enjoy my quiet time. enjoy the peace. come next week, a new string of battles to fight. so that's about it. i promise to post a more detailed update this weekend. until next time then, cheers.

Marvel marathon

yes this is an update of my life.

hectic life this week but i have a small window this morning to post here. well the title will sort of give you the idea on the thing i am going to talk about in this post. the movie "Avengers: Infinity War" will be releasing real soon in Singapore. in slightly more than a month's time, the 10-years in the making build-up will hit a significant milestone. really cannot wait.. what a good time to be alive.

so anyway, i am currently on this Marvel marathon where i catch up all the Marvel movies starting from the very first one. if you are interested, check out the timeline at the following page.

Marvel Cinematic timeline - CNET

those in red are the movies. those in black are the series. those really hardcore ones can explore all red and black entries. however, i am a fan but not that a crazy one to watch the series ones. so yeah.. i am one movie away from the first Avengers movie as of last night. have quite a few more to follow prior to April's Avengers movie. until next time then, cheers.

small light

yes this is an update of my life.

recently, i have been really down and dejected. at times i feel like everything that is happening is go against me or out to hit me right in the face. each time i try to stand up, i will be hit down again. it feels more difficult to stand up each time as each hit on me is harder. in times like these, no one can really help you. as much as you wished someone could, they cannot. it is up to oneself to struggle and pick oneself up.

well, that said.. after seeing many days of darkness, i am beginning to see a small light in front. i found my little positivity and optimism to push myself up and on. i am glad that i am able to do so. i am glad of certain things and people that happen to be around me. yeah, while none can directly help me, their presence was sufficient. this reminds me of the quote in Harry Potter series.

well, that is it. quotes can be lame when read out of context and what not. on the flipside, they can be a timely reminder. until next time then, cheers.

it's a dream

4th of 4th

yes this is an update of my life.

hmm, a timtes i really wonder if i am currently juggling too many things at once. would i be better off if i let go of one or more of those things i am juggling? well, i have been juggling these few things for quite a while now so i might be cloud by the routine and what not. nonetheless, for now i think i am just going to stick to that routine. so long it still works, there isn't a problem right?

a thing that has been bothering me is the fact that my graduation ceremony clashes with my reservist date. let's focus on the graduation for now. i really want to go. my parents would love to see me be on stage as well. however, that would be costs from the stuff needed for the ceremony alongside with the hassle. i get to celebrate the occasion with my peers. now, move the focus to my reservist. i cannot possible defer the reservist. i have to clear my IPPT. i get to do reservists alongside my peers as well. you see, i am so very stuck.. sandwiched. the only good thing that could happen right now is the school said that the ceremony is on that Thursday evening. then and only then, i stand a chance to turn up. argh.. so infuriating.

on to the FYP right now haha. finally finalised the presentation date. yeah it will be on the 4th of April. thereafter i will be literally 95% done with FYP. though i really wonder what my examiner will ask during my Q&A. until next time then, cheers.

aspiration

today's dating

came across this interesting read couple of weeks back and thought of sharing it here. yeah i am well aware of the source but such read put people into greater and better perspectives.. because we deal with slightly less filter and what not. anyway, enjoy.

Modern dating is way too complicated, here's why.

left pain

yes this is an update of my life.

well, actually i am here to make noise about the ulcer situation in my mouth. three ulcers in the let side of my mouth and each of them is utterly painful and disruptive. okay i am kidding, of course i am going to say more.

the last few days i have been receiving countless number of punches. well, not literally but yeah mental punches. i have been fighting battles that cannot be fought by others besides me. maybe i will slowly reveal some over the next few posts. but yes, i can see myself slowly coming back here active again.. i hope. juggling FYP oral presentation, class 2A lessons, school classes, private tuition classes and job hunting. then social life comes in.. at times i find myself wanting to lock myself in a room and enjoy the peace and tranquility of being alone after dealing with those pressing tasks.

am i weird to put social life not as a top few priority? in fact, i realised i put alone time above social life. well, no wonder i always use the line of "introvert by default, extrovert by choice" to describe myself. until next time then, cheers.

anthem of courage

empathy

people ask me to have more faith and trust in others every now and then. when i choose to believe more in the good of people, i get disappointed in the end. well, maybe this recursive experience is the main reason why the walls around me are seemingly solid against most people.

where does empathy takes one to? where does being nice takes one to? well, in this society where the cutthroat behaviour is evident.. these traits are more often than not the bane of one's lifestyle. being nice and giving in do not necessarily take you anywhere good. people instead will exploit your good will and milk your kindness.. then by the time you realised it.. well, you are already too late. you are dry and empty, unable to accomplish the personal needs you set aside in the midst of helping. who then will be there to help? yeah people might sympathise with you. yeah people might offer the listening ear. yeah people might try to encourage you. however, how often do they really lend a hand?

problems faced by one can be divided into two main groups. there are problems where people are glad you have them and then there are problems where people will take notice but not help you. ironically, some of those people are the ones who ask why i love to be alone at times. well, save the disappointment. funny though.. with these walls some more thick skinned people might still be able to break through.. no, not to reach out but to exploit you further. at times i wonder if it was my fault that those walls are not built strong enough to hold them out.

in a society so focus on self-validation, the majority is so focused on themselves that they start ignoring things happening in plain sight. things that matter more than likes on Instagram.. things that matter more than retweets on Twitter.. things that matter more than the grades on certificates. i am sad.. no not for myself, but more for what the supposedly most advanced species on the planet has become.

all of me