amazing grays

punched in the teeth

yes this is an update of my life.

i am still rather demoralised from today's microeconomics paper though it sort of happened more than 12 hours ago. what can i say? such disappointed will never grow into me.. i will not be numb by such disappointments. life is a weird yet wonderful thing. whenever i try to be positive and do my best, it will throw me with something i will never foresee or expect. it is like a punch in my teeth as i was sprinted head on.. smiling. the pain will never be numb no matter how many times it punches. no matter how old i am and which stage of life i am, such incidences will stink.. big time.

no worries, all i need is time. facing such stuff should be expected but ironically, as i expect such things to happen i just will never expect the disappointment and morale-killing sting that follows. ohh wells. that is life.

on the other side of my life, internship interview the other day was kind of weird and different. no news yet though. sadly, in this case, no news is bad news. still keeping my fingers crossed as i understand as each day that pass by is a great drop in chances of getting it. i hope for the strength to power through until next Thursday.. the next three papers will be as bad or likely worse off that today's. until next time then, cheers.

restless in between

yes this is an update of my life.

being a statistics major has its cons whenever it comes to final exams. among the science cohort, we are always the last few to end all of our papers. even during normal school weeks, our classes generally end later than other science students. i don't really know why but this can be annoying. yet another reason i look forward to work life.. lol.

papers are spread out well across two weeks for me this semester. well, some may rejoice seeing that there are two weeks to clear five finals with extra revision time in between each paper. however, i don't. during the time in between each paper, i tend to be really restless.. to the point of no revision is the only way to be the least restless. yeah, you read that right. i hardly do productive shit from the start of the first paper. i rather start then end fast.. than to have the entire course to drag for so long.

ohh wells.. just a little rant, nothing i can do about it as well. just plucking that splint out of my head before turning in for the night. yeah, i sleep damn early the night before paper too.. haha no surprise. until next time then, cheers.

dancing on my own

unbeaten

yes this is an update of my life.

well, last day of the reading week. my brain is at saturation point since Friday. the weekend has been a time of catching up lost sleep over the weekdays and also literally waiting for the papers to start. first paper is tomorrow. morning paper.. thank goodness this semester there isn't a paper i have that takes place during the lunch hour.. the time when you aren't sure to have your lunch before or after the paper. i had one last semester.. wasn't good but it was SS.. so S/U lol.

apart from the mundane yet stressful reading week being filled with revision, i was glad that there were a couple of good news and opportunities chanced upon. one of which being having an interview tomorrow afternoon. to be honest, considering my availability dates during this coming winter break, i am surprised that i was called for this interview with a potential internship placing. ohh wells, not having false high hopes but still crossing my fingers as i faced the interviewers tomorrow afternoon.

yet another good thing that happened was the match between Man Utd and Arsenal last night. well, given the poor show from Arsenal, the 1-1 draw was good news to me.. haha. really nice to watch the match and experience the adrenaline and what not.. been quite a while. now then, on to a proper evening rest before taking on the first of the many final papers i have. until next time then, cheers.

prevail

jump

el dorado

aqua vitae

last round

yes this is an update of my life.

not a really good time to have a headache at this time. hopefully it will not deteriorate for it is now reading week. weekends are almost over.. and here comes reading week. the time where students will start doing the mad rush in hope to cram everything taught throughout the semester just in time for the finals. i am no exception. out of the 5 modules with finals, i can safely say that i have two of them that i am still pretty clueless about. dear goodness, i hope i can get at least a B from the two burden modules.

time to be more discipline. with study time and even sleep time. shall aim to sleep early and wake up early daily. haha.. that is my practice usually.. apart from a day of no alarms in the morning. my body works in a funny way.. okay, my mind to be exact. play time cannot be forgone no matter the time of the semester. somehow if i study and not enjoy/play, my revision will kind of be useless. so yeah, not sure what works for you all but remember to give yourself a breather now and then.

dear friends, i will become a ghost in text as well. i will probably reply quickly after dinner when my play time kicks in haha. as for here, i will do the usual thing of posting chilling pieces from my favourite artistes.. TSFH and Future World Music. work hard but don't overwork. until next time then, cheers.

victory

south park

yes this is an update of my life.

i found my drive to push for my revision for finals. i found the strength and fire to take this final lap. now, there is only one concern.. i hope i am not too late. five finals yet again and the schedule for the papers over the two weeks of examinations isn't exactly ideal but could have been worse i guess. gosh, time flies. in the mad scramble to understand things highlighted in lecture and tutorial classes, i have failed to really keep track of the weeks passing by. i have failed to pause to slap myself that time is flying by really fast. no, i don't exactly regret but just like always, i'm sure i could probably have worked harder in some parts of the semester.

nonetheless, distant past is also a past. time to focus on the present and what is ahead. woohoo, Taiwan holiday. okay, that is probably too ahead. finals first.

school stuff aside, recently the world sort of see how things can change real quick within a short period of time. however, i am not here to talk about those boring stuff but rather about the show "South Park". as crude and harsh the show can be, there are really interesting topics brought up during the recent episodes of the show. some of the messages and what not in the show do sting but truth hurts. i think this show is pretty awesome.. lol. never fail to amuse me about the things that are happening around the world. however, a word of caution is that this show requires you to know the things happening around the world. things that are big and small.. so long the thing stings someone somewhere at the very least.

well, it is Friday. time to enjoy my end of the week and end of school. end the last weekend before rushing for the final revision. until next time then, cheers.

Mr. Orange

in a land far far away, Mr. Orange took the throne of Westland. the support for him from the people raised countless questions about what they view an ideal leader is. is an ideal leader one who disrespects women? is an ideal leader one who mocks people with physical disabilities? is an ideal leader one who puts people down just to make himself feel great? is an ideal leader one who keeps saying he will make things better without listing clear directions and plans? is an ideal leader one who is racist? is an ideal leader one who is a bigot?

Mr. Orange's reign will be nothing less of four years. his rule opens a huge door to the land of great uncertainties and unchartered waters. personally, i am curious, though a little worried, of the times ahead of us.

gut feeling

yes this is an update of my life.

so glad to actually wind down yesterday and today. not much work done but lots of chill time. yeah, i might have a pinch of regret now and then but i know i need these times. i am still searching for my drive to power through revision for finals. no steam. no pumped feeling. no motivation. but i will find it real soon. in the mean time i am trying to clear the last assignment. it is taking way longer than expected.. thanks to procrastination.

well, some clown said that tomorrow is a better time for anything.. haha. not true when it comes to such serious stuff. but i cannot really help as of now. i shall aim to find my drive.. tomorrow evening so Thursday onwards i can power through the next month. i hope this will be the last time i use that saying literally.

late nights. another thing i should aim to take care of. late nights are taking a little on me and i know this habit is no good. shall aim to adjust before reading week starts.. so that i can make full use of sunshine. i don't really do productive work in the late evening for some reason though i wish at times i can. ohh wells, at least i know myself well enough to work smart.

anyway, before closing, i shall side track about a decision made yesterday. i decided to say some words and act in a way i hope i will not regret. time will tell i guess. nonetheless, following my gut feeling has, more often than not, helped me through my life so far. until next time then, cheers.

wrong time

yes this is an update of my life.

tomorrow will be start of week 13.. the last week of the semester. though few modules are done with their classes and what not.. there are the weird annoying few that have yet to end. so yeah, not really an extra week of reading week.. probably just 1.5. better than nothing i suppose. this week will be the week to consolidate the energy and stamina to power through to the 1st of December when my last paper will end.

sadly, this is also a very wrong time to feel the cold engine. i have lost a huge amount of motivation for this semester already and i am barely close to the end of my papers, considering the fact that i have yet to clear one out of the five final papers. hell, even reading week has yet to begin. i guess this major lack of steam is partly due to the crazy past two weeks of submissions and what not. it is about time to head out and hang out to chill for few days before i am ready again to sprint to the finish line.

equal work and play time. i forgot this aspect for a week plus now. hence, the mental health of mine is signalling the need to take in slower for awhile. hope  i regain the motivation to tackle all the revision in the coming few weeks. press on people. we are in too late to give up anyway. until next time then, cheers.

cassandra

dream on

undeserving credit

yes this is an update of my life.

so far so good this week, i hope. sort of on pace with my study plan and what not. even have the time to chill can catch up with the many weekly episodes of the shows i usually follow. despite trying to revise and what not, the swimming in the ocean situation i mentioned previously will not be better. it probably will never be. so yeah time to get used to it until graduation.

being in university signifies everyone is at least of an age to think for themselves.. to get real shit done and face the real punches and what not from the outside world. this age also reveals who you truly are for the rest of your life. i'm not perfect. no one is but not everyone are ignorant and stupid. relax.. stupidity here refers to no common sense. in fact, normally when i mention that word here, i would refer it to not having basic common sense and manners. 

okay, back to track.. yeah, ignorant and stupid. the world is really an amusing place to be in. there are people who only finds you when your help is needed. there are people who turns cold when you are of no use to them. there are people who barely do shit but get an undeserving credit. i guess this could be translated to the world outside as well. while many are fighting really hard to make ends meet and what not, there are those who take everything for granted and expect everything to go their way and everyone to cater to them as and when they deem needed. it is how the world works to a certain extent but i am curious about the finish line.. where will they be at.

yeah, i might be ranting out all these out of sheer anger and spite but at least i know what i say when i'm in that state is from my heart. no, i won't confront those fools but i will accept the fact and situation and move on. ranting a little helps me with that. just keep in mind that don't treat people the way you don't want them to treat you. when the day comes where i disappear without helping, don't accuse me of being selfish or what.. done being nice for the n-th time. until next time then, cheers.

No...vember

yes this is an update of my life.

my ohh my, time really flies. we are now into the second last month of the year 2016. really felt as though it was barely months ago when i was welcoming the new year and celebrating the lunar new year. well, in a blink of an eye, it is now November.

November can only mean one thing. it is exam month.. lol. yeah, being a little pessimistic here. exams are in less than a month's time right now. few of my modules are done with the syllabus but sadly there are two that might just spill into the last week of lessons. ohh wells.. either way i guess it is time to start revising for those that are completed. too much content and too little time.

it is now nearing the final lap of this semester's race, press on people. until next time then, cheers.